today is 14 jan 10. dh setengah bulan dah kite semua ni kat dlm tahun 2010. cepat jek. ape perkembangan sepanjang 14 hari ni? as for me, in term of work, takde perkembangan langsung. it seems like everyone cam tanak kacau urs truly ni by not giving any tasks or project sampai after confinement.. yelah kan, tak sampai 2 bulan pun lagi.. kalau bagi keje ape2 karang, dibuatnye si hannah comel ni nak kuar cepat, takke kelam kabut semua orang. so.. bak kate AA, relax while it lasts.. huhu..

this week, masuk 32 minggu already. so, officially bile orang tanye dh baper bulan, i can say, 8 bulan dah.. perut ni makin lama rase makin berat. yelah.. almost 2 weeks ago, in my last check up, hannah dh 2 kg. she gained 1 kg in 1 month.. another check up will be next weekend. i'm not worried abt hannah's weight.. but more concern on my weight.. selera makan ni cam bertambah2 jek.. i wonder how much will i gained untuk sampaikan to the next check up tu. jangan sampai kene bebel ngan doktor lagi, dahlaa.. tak suke betul if ppl asked me to stop gaining weight mase2 pregnant ni.. camana nak buat tu?? haish!! semua tu will distort my mind and psychology, resulting tak lalu nak makan laa.. itu la.. ini laa.. bile tak lalu nak makan, mula la perut masuk angin = muntah = lembik.. tak suke betul rase mase tu. sampai nak bercakap pun tak larat. same goes if i am too tired. ppl said, jgn layan sangat rase penat tu.. and i tried not to layan sangat.. but i'll ended up... hmm... terduduk tepi mesin basuh.. not able to do anything (nasib baik tak pengsan jek), sampai la dear hubby came to rescue.. so, camana? but as at now, i still can walk to klcc frm my office & back laa.. walaupun if b4 this i can reach klcc in 10 minutes, skarang ni ade la dlm 15 - 20 minutes berjalan baru sampai... hehe.. slow giler rasenye acik azell jalan skarang (and ade la terasa cam peguin jugak kekadang tu.. ahaks!)

tak sabar nak tgk, peluk, cium arissa hannah ni.. nonie dh selamat delivered her cute lil hazel.. ni 7 years later, ade la status kat FB memasing, "aimy (lynx)/an-nadiyah (lynn)/hazel (nonie)/hannah (me)/qaisara (kak wawa) first day of school".. whoaah...semua princess!  :D hehe...  and ramai lagi sebenarnye anak2 yg sebaya tahun ni. meriah! with nonie is done with her turn, it is now my turn lak.. another 51 days to go.. my left wrist makin sakit (especially bangun pagi2.. sampai nak kuar air mata kekadang tu..), tulang tongkeng pun akan sakit kalau duduk lama2, nak shift side left & right mase tido pun makin susah, sangat cepat rase penat skarang ni, perut pun rase makin memberat.. huhuu.. azell rase semua symptoms in 8 months pregnancy i read in books/internet. in fact, i actually dealt with all pregnancy symptoms sepanjang 8 bulan ni.. daripada morning sickness, sampai la carpal tunnel syndrome (hence, my painful wrist)..  takde satu pun yg azell tak rase.. :D so, am i the lucky one? hahaha.... oh well, anything & everything for this little arissa hannah.. :) semoga dia menjadi seorang anak yg mempunyai keazaman yg kuat & penuh dengan kasih sayang.. Insya Allah..

esok hari jumaat.. i have plan already mase lunch. nak mkn dim sum @ nov0tel hotel with kak azah. nasib baik laa she is willing to temankan kawan dia yg berperut besar (dan berselera besar) ni pegi sana. kalau tak, sian anak i nanti kempunan nak makan dim sum.. hahaha..

hmm.. skarang dh pukul 6.45 ptg... penat dh ni.. tapi baru dpt sms from dear hubby kate dia baru habis meeting. adela dlm 1/2 an hour lagi kene tunggu. the pitfall of not driving to work - i have to wait for dear hubby to pick me up..  nak drive sendiri, tak larat sbb my left wrist is really painful. ape lagi driving with steering yg tk power. nak pusing2 steering tu, mahu mengah acik azell nih.. well, takat mengah takpe lagi.. tapi kalau takbleh maneuver langsung sbb tangan sakit, how? hmm... so, nak taknak.. stay jelah kat ofis tunggu cik abang amik..

oklah.. mata dh berpinar tgk screen ni.. have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

today is the last day in 2009. sungguh banyak things happening kat dlm tahun 2009 ni. yang paling significant is my status changed from bujang trang-tang-tang, to someone else's wife.. and changed lagi few weeks after that when i got to know there's someone is growing inside my belly.. huhuu.. all within a year. but of course.. the changes are wonderful and magical. full of ups & downs.. smiles, laughters and tears.. sometimes, bile teringat semula all the things i did in the first half of the year, rase cam rindu jek mase2 bujang dulu.. happy2 ngan kenkawan almost every nite.. berdating2 ngan dear fiance mase tu sambil cari barang2 for the wedding.. nice!! but i wud never trade what i got at the second half of the year ni with anything else. having someone to call a husband and being loved as a wife - priceless!! and after all these years, never thought that i'll be married in 2009 - with someone i knew years before. ingatkan dapat orang yg luar dari circle of frens.. tup2.. laaaa... ngan kawan sekelas jugak rupanye.. heheh.. the wedding was wonderful. everything was almost perfect. still remember the nikah nite.. my best girlfrens and families were there in the mosque, witnessing the moment. sekali lafaz jek, i am his. rase cam tak caya pun ade mase tu. although ade la hiccups sane sini during the wedding, but i can forget abt that. tapi ape2 hal pun, nasib baik laa kawen ni sekali jek (Insya Allah). sbb cam serik nak mengharungi detik2 sebelum tu.. ngan bz with preparationnye.. ngan penat nye.. ngan cabaran yg dtg from out of nowhere.. ngan duit yg mengalir laju cam air.. heheheh.. Alhamdulillah.. we've settled down quite ok now.

this year, ape yg terjadi mostly in my personal life. work wise, takde ape sangat yg happening. project halted.. and maybe will be scrapped. there goes all the works done in 2 years.. semua bakal dibakulsampahkan by next year. my KPI mesti low gegila for this year. yelah.. dh baper bulan i'm not chargeable here. feels like makan gaji buta. though not my fault, but still rase tak best jugak laa.. earlier this year, things were fine with my project. went for endless meetings.. we were trying very hard to accomplish everything.. until at one point, everything turned to be a waste of time & effort. so, since then, urs truly stays idle. hopefully by january nx year, things are back to normal. tapi.. mase tu dh 8 bulan dah.. risau sungguh kalau dah tak larat nak pk pasal keje or back into meetings & stuff mase tu.. hmm.. camne eh?

family matters.. amal & aniq were born this year. dh 10 orang dh cucu mak & ayah..  next year, tambah lagi sorang.. meriah! adik started working after years of studying. at last, she has her own money to spend. our family keep on growing this year.. and Alhamdulillah, amin's business is stabilising also. everything & everyone is doing fine this year. nothing else i can say for all the prosperities except for Alhamdulillah... all the thanks to the Almighty for all the blessings.. :)

i am 7 months along now. heartburn jek manjang la ni.. tak mkn pedas pun rase gak heartburn.. ape lagi kalau mkn pedas.. terbakar!! (like skarang ni.. ). tonite, tak tau nak celebrate new year kat mane. we have no plan for that. unlike several years back.. still remember, on new year eve 2007, i spent the nite on the phone with a fren i called abg apis. a year after that, eve of 2008, celebrated with my dear someone... eve of 2009, spent the nite with my dear fiance.. and tonite, i'll be celebrating it with my dear hubby - and baby in my tummy.. :D cool! ape-apehal pun, i'm so glad and thankful this year has past with so many "achievements" in my life. next year, lagi banyak challenges akan dtg.. being a wife, ibu & having a career to secure.. hopefully everything will be as good & as smooth as this year. Insya Allah.

hmmm.. azam tahun ni accomplished tak? accomplished in certain things.. but jadi lagi worst in another things.. sigh!! so, next year nye azam - to be better in everything. Insya Allah..

have a good day, dear beautiful ppl.. have a blessed & happy new year. goodbye 2009 & hello 2010!!!   

today is the first day of the last month in 2009. lagi 31 hari, dah jadi tahun 2010 pulak.. cepat jek mase berlalu. tahun ni macam2 jadi in my life. seems like my life changes very rapidly.. dari jadi tunang orang yg still bleh berhuha ngan kenkawan everyday and nite, mid of the year, dah jadi someone else's wife.. pastu, dgn pantasnye, status tukar lagi dh nak jadi mak orang.. haish! tak dan nak catch up... and now, i'm in my 26 weeks pregnant to Arissa Hannah. another approximately 12 - 14 weeks to go. baju2 kurung pun dh limited skarang ni.. nasib baik dear hubby ade belikan baju peknen kat wife dia yg bulat nih.. sbb pagi td, ingatkan nak pakai feveret baju kurung gi ofis.. tapinye.. alaaahai.. ngan kainnye yg takleh nak zip, ngan bajunye yg dah tertarik ke depan.. buruk sangat.. last2, amik la baju peknen baru & pakai.. ade hati lagi tu nak pakai baju2 lama... cam tak sedar perut dh besar.. heheh..

raya haji ari tu, beraya kat rumah mak ayah. seronot jek takyah buat ape2 sbb mak dah tempah the foods for the 2 days.. kecuali makan tengahari, breakfasts for 2 days were taken care of. on the hari raya itself, lepas solat raya, macam biasa ayah bagi tazkirah b4 salam2 mintak maaf ngan semua orang. pastu, after bergambar2 and spent some time melayan anak2 sedara, went up & dozed off ngan dear hubby.. kul 1 tghari terbangun & dear hubby kelam kabut bersiap nak gi solat Jumaat. went down tolong2 mak masak tghari with the daging korban yg ayah bawak balik. after lunch, lepak jap borak2 ngan dear hubby b4 got ready nak kuar gi jenjalan. memula pegi alamanda jek, ingatkan nak beli some stuff kat guardian & tgk kot2 ade tiket 2012 or new moon. tapi, as usual, cinema is full now. after jenjalan round2 alamanda & bought the stuff i wanted, off to puchong to pay my ctbank. on the way nak balik, dear hubby nak makan carl's jr la pulak.. so, instead of terus balik, went to sunway pyramid. had the delicious burgers, bought ubi bakar for mak & went home.

saturday, 28 nov - pepagi lagi dear hubby dh kuar gi bengkel.. leaving me with my sisters kat rumah. nothing much i did. after tolong mak masak tghari & perap ayam for bbq later that nite, lepak2 with mak, tgk tv & stuff... nak kuar pun takde kete plus takde kawan.. adik tido & ijas went out with her husband. so, with hujan yg lebat kat luar & sejuk & cozy jek dlm bilik, ape lagi yg paling best utk dibuat kecuali tido kan? hehhe.. kul 6 ptg, after freshen up went down & start preparing for the bbq. at 8 p.m, start bakar membakar & sesi makan memakan.. seronot! bbq-ing is like one of our event mase raya haji. if last year, everyone was there mase bbq, termasuk adik's fiance (and how i wish my fiance pun ade mase tu... but he was on the way back to KL), but this year around, cam best sangat my dear hubby was here with us. after habis membakar 2 ekor ayam & daging & ikan & ubi, memasing surrender kekenyangan. went to bed after finished watching cerekarama, leaving 2 kids (arif & mia) yg tak kenal penat & ngantuk, playing in their grandparents' room.

sunday, 29 nov - pepagi lagi dh bangun sbb nak kene buat MGTT kat hospital. after finished buat semua bende, balik rumah & kemas barang2 utk balik sri petaling. went to pavillion after that, to watch new moon. dear hubby dh berjaya membeli tiket with the nice seat. ok la citer tu.. agak slow, but still.. enjoyable. after watching the movie, pegi jusco maluri to buy my maternity clothes.. hence, the new baju i'm wearing today. :D nice!

there goes my raya haji activities this year. kalau my heartburn is not burning, my energy level is high, my back & waist is not aching and my bladder can hold the liquid long enough - instead of the urge to go to bathroom every hour, mesti lagi best.. but it's ok.. because i know raya haji next year, i'll be back to my normal self plus our little angel on tow.. superb!! Insya Allah.

oh my heart is burning!! :( ni laa bahananye makan pedas ni.. mane nak cari susu to relief this burning eh?

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

... but, how if i can be everything? so i dont need u here anymore, rite? oh well!!

anyways.. lamanye tak update this blog of mine. life is kinda mundane. everyday, everything went by as usual. takde interesting things happened. my pregnancy is progressing well. that day mase pegi monthly checkup, dr. Kham dh bagitau my baby's jantina.. and then, 2 weeks after that, went for detail scan. the dr. ukur and checked everything, Alhamdulillah, baby sihat & normal & perfect.. Insya Allah. though my uri is still kat bawah, but still ade mase for it to go up. Hopefully everything will be ok. another 103 days to go.. another 103 days to go for Arissa Hannah to be born. cant wait!! tgk gambar 3d muka dia cam comeii jek.. hahahha.. ape-apehal pun, i love her so much! dah la ni tgh nakal2 kicking here & there each time i lie back or mase tgh duduk diam2.. or mase tgh lapar.. 

anyways, i found this in someone's blog mase tgh google kenape tangan rase kebas2.. these are some of the symptoms orang tgh pregnant. utk husband2, tolong la paham.. ur wife is carrying ur baby.. so, dont expect her to be superwoman yg bleh buat everything. if she said, she is tired.. she IS tired. so, tolong2 laa ape yg patut..

1. Letih

Apabila anda hamil tanda-tanda dan simtom awal ialah: * Tidak datang haid. * Payudara anda mungkin menjadi berisi dan puting sensitif. * Anda mungkin berasa loya dan muntah-muntah. *Anda mungkin lebih kerap membuang air kecil. * Anda mungkin berasa letih dan selalu mengantuk.

- I felt it all!! :D


2. Loya2 dan muntah

Kira-kira separuh dari wanita hamil mengalami loya dan muntah. Biasanya ia tidak begitu teruk dan berlaku di waktu pagi. Bagaimanapun kadang-kadang ia menjadi lebih teruk pada bila2 masa. Keadaan ini biasanya berlaku 2minggu selepas ketiadaan haid dan berlanjutan sehingga 6 hingga 8 minggu. Sebab berlakunya loya ini tidak diketahui, mungkin ia berpunca dari bertambahnya hormon seks yang dihasilkan ketika hamil. Loya biasanya hilang menjelang minggu ke-12 ketika badan sudah dapat menyesuaikan diri dengan aras hormon yang tinggi

- Oh yes!! and it all gone right after masuk week 12.


3. Kerap membuang air kecil

Dalam peringkat awal kehamilan ginjal bekerja kuat menyebabkan pundi kencing lebih cepat terisi air kencing. Ini pula akan menyebabkan kekerapan membuang air kencing

- kekadang tu rase cam malas nak kuar toilet, sebab kejap lepas tu mesti nak masuk lagi..


4. Kebas tangan dan kaki

Turut dikenali sebagai Sindrom Carpal Tunnel.

Antara simptom yang biasanya terjadi adalah:
1.Kebas - pada bahagian tangan dan jari-jari tangan terutamanya ibu jari, jari telunjuk, jari hantu dan jari manis tetapi tidak pula berlaku pada jari kecil. Rasa kebas ini akan menjadi lebih kuat terutamanya semasa memandu, semasa memegang objek seperti telefon atau surat khabar atau semasa bangun dari tidur. Kebanyakan pesakit akan menggoyangkan tangan mereka untuk mengurangkan simptom tersebut.
2. Kesakitan - yang terjadi pada sendi pergelangan tangan sehingga ke lengan atas, bahu atau ke tapak tangan dan jari, terutamanya selepas menggunakan tangan secara berterusan atau menggunakan tangan dengan kuat.
3. Rasa lemah pada bahagian tangan dan boleh menyebabkan objek yang dipegang akan jatuh.
Faktor-faktor lain yang meningkatkan risiko menghidap sindrom ini adalah: * Keadaan kesihatan tertentu: Perubahan hormon seperti pada pesakit yang mengalami gangguan tiroid, obesiti, diabetes, wanita yang hamil dan mereka yang menggunakan pil perancang keluarga. Sindrom Carpal Tunnel yang berlaku semasa hamil biasanya akan hilang selepas melahirkan anak.

- i am feeling it now.. tapi tak la teruk sangat. cuma tak selesa sbb rase kebas jek..

5. Gatal-gatal

Di akhir kehamilan adalah biasa jika anda terasa gatal-gatal. Ia hanya melibatkan tempat-tempat yang terdapatnya tanda regang di abdomen. Gunakan krim atau minyak zaitun untuk menghilangkan tanda regang tersebut. Losyen Calamine juga boleh digunakan untuk melegakan keadaan. Bagi gatal-gatal yang teruk anda perlukan ubat antihistamin untuk menghilangkannya dan membantu anda tidur di waktu malam.

- hmm.. yang ni tak rase lagi.. and hopefully, takkan dapat this simptom.


6. Placenta Previa

Kedudukan uri di bawah atau dalam istilah perubatannya dikenali sebagai Placenta Previa (PP) merupakan salah satu komplikasi yang biasa ditemui di kalangan wanita hamil. Pakar Perunding Obstetrik dan Ginekologi (O&G), di salah sebuah hospital swasta di Kuantan, Dr. Suraya Arshad berkata, PP merupakan keadaan di mana uri berada pada segmen bawah dinding rahim. Menurut beliau, dalam keadaan ini, uri tersebut boleh menutupi sebahagian atau keseluruhan
bukaan rahim atau os.
“PP cuma boleh didefinisikan sekiranya tempoh kehamilan melebihi 28 minggu. Ini kerana dalam tempoh tersebut segmen bawah rahim mula terbentuk,'’ jelasnya.
Kedudukan uri di bahagian bawah pada peringkat awal kehamilan adalah suatu keadaan yang normal. Biasanya, uri ini akan berubah kedudukannya apabila kehamilan telah mencecah usia 28 minggu. Dr. Suraya memberitahu, hampir 90 peratus kes individu yang mempunyai kedudukan uri di bawah akan berakhir dengan kedudukan uri yang normal di akhir tempoh kehamilan. Dianggarkan PP ditemui satu dalam setiap 200 kelahiran.

PP bukanlah sejenis penyakit, tetapi ia adalah satu keadaan yang menjelaskan tentang kedudukan uri yang abnormal. Sehingga hari ini punca berlakunya PP ini tidak diketahui. Meskipun begitu, ia boleh membahayakan nyawa ibu mahupun bayi dalam kandungan. Uri dan tali pusat merupakan bahan antara yang menghubungkan ibu dan janin dalam rahim. Uri berfungsi membawa zat makanan kepada bayi dan juga mengeluarkan hormon-hormon yang penting semasa mengandung. Pada masa yang sama ia juga mengkumuhkan bahan-bahan buangan melalui sistem tapisan. Dalam keadaan yang normal kedudukan uri adalah di segmen atas dinding rahim.

Kedudukan uri yang abnormal ini terbahagi kepada tiga iaitu:
1) Marginal PreviaUri terletak di segmen bawah rahim dan di pinggir bukaan rahim.
2) Partial PreviaUri menutupi sebahagian bukaan rahim.
3) Total previaUri menutup keseluruhan bukaan rahim.

- my uri is rendah.. tapi still ade mase utk naik. hopefully by week 28, everything dah normal.. Insya Allah.


7. Anemia

Jenis anemia yang lazim, terjadi apabila badan tidak memperolehi ferum yang mencukupi untuk membina sel darah merah tambahan yang diperlukan ketika hamil. Mengambil makanan yang kaya ferum selalunya dapat mencegah anemia jenis ini. Ini termasuklah daging merah, makanan laut, hati, kekacang, sayuran hijau dan bijirin yang diperkaya dengan ferum. Tambahan ferum boleh diambil sewaktu hamil kerana keperluan ferum ketika ini adalah lebih tinggi daripada yang biasa terkandung dalam diet. Namun mengambil ferum tambahan akan menyebabkan najis lebih gelap dan lebih keras, oleh itu anda perlu meningkatkan pengambilan cecair dan serat di dalam diet anda. Pastikan anda menyimpan pil ferum di tempat yang selamat dan sukar dicapai oleh kanak-kanak. Terdapat juga jenis anemia yang lebih serius dan jika dikesan ketika pemeriksaan awal di makmal, kehamilan anda akan diawasi dengan teliti.

- Insya Allah, my blood is sufficient. hari ahad ni baru nak gi buat thorough check up.

8. Pertumbuhan bulu

Perubahan hormon juga menyebabkan rambut ibu menjadi lebih lebat, kadangkala mungkin tumbuh pula bulu-bulu di bahagian-bahagian yang sebelum ini tidak m empunyai bulu. Pertumbuhan bulu-bulu baru ini dipanggil ‘hirsutism’ dan ianya akan hilang setelah enam bulan anak dilahirkan.Keguguran rambut juga mungkin berlaku dalam masa tiga bulan selepas kelahiran. Ini adalah perkara biasa dan tidak perlu dibimbangkan kerana keadaan rambut pada badan ibu sedang kembali kepada keadaan sebelum mengandung. Tidak ada ubat yang dapat digunakan untuk menghalang keguguran rambut ini selepas kelahiran anak. Untuk kehadiran bulu-bulu di bahagian-bahagian lain badan, ibu-ibu boleh mencabutnya ataupun berhubung dengan pakar-pakar kecantikan jika ia tidak hilang selepas
enam bulan.

- hmmm...  my hair is lustrous! :D


9. Tompok-tompok gelap atau hitam

Ketika mengandung, para ibu mungkin menyedari kehadiran tompok atau bintik kegelapan (kehitaman) pada payudara, puting dan juga di celah kangkang.Ini adalah kerana paras melanin yang meningkat iaitu komponen yang memberikan warna pada rambut dan juga kulit.Kira-kira 90 peratus wanita mengandung akan mengalami tompok-tompok kehitaman ini sementara mereka yang berkulit gelap akan menunjukkan kesan-kesan melanin dengan lebih jelas. Tompok-tompok kekelabuan sekitar mata, hidung dan pipi pula dipanggil “chloasma” ataupun dikenali sebagai “topeng mengandung”. Hampir 70 peratus mereka yang mengandung akan mengalami perubahan kulit ini. Sekiranya terdedah kepada matahari secara berpanjangan, warna tompokan ini akan menjadi lebih jelas serta gelap. Oleh itu, ibu-ibu harus mengehadkan pendedahan muka pada matahari sekiranya tidak mahu tompokan ini menjadi lebih jelas kelihatan.

- ketara la jugak nampak simptom ni kat azell.. huhu..


10. Keputihan

Semasa mengandung, masalah keputihan boleh menjadi semakin banyak sehingga timbul rasa tidak selesa. Ini disebabkan perubahan paras hormon badan menyebabkan terdapatnya pertambahan pengaliran darah di kawasan vagina dan pertambahan flora organisma normal di kawasan vagina. Pastikan discaj vagina ini tidak bertukar menjadi berbau atau berubah warna seperti kehijauan/kuning atau gatal kerana ini bermakna puan mesti mendapatkan rawatan untuk jangkitan vagina. Jagalah kebersihan diri, gunakan seluar dalam dari kain kapas/cotton dan pantiliner/sanitary napkins. Elakkan memakai seluar panjang dari kain nylon. Jangan gunakan cecair pembersih vagina (douche) semasa mengandung kerana ini boleh membahayakan puan.


11. Sakit tulang punggung

- oh yes!!! sakit.. :(:(


12. Pendarahan

Pendarahan tanpa rasa sakit yang boleh berlaku bila-bila masa dan dalam apa-apa keadaan pun dalam tempoh 28 minggu kehamilan sehingga sebelum kelahiran. Pendarahan ini mungkin banyak atau sedikit.Walaupun mungkin sedikit namun ia adalah tanda amaran yang mana keadaan yang lebih serius lagi mungkin akan berlaku. Pendarahan serius seperti air paip mengalir boleh berlaku yang boleh mengakibatkan individu kehilangan banyak darah.Kehilangan darah yang banyak ini jika dibiarkan boleh mengakibatkan kematian ibu dan anak yang dikandung.

- Alhamdulillah tak pernah berlaku pendarahan ni..


13. Kulit berminyak

- hmm.. mase tak peknen pun kulit berminyak gak.. so..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

** credit to blog mawar nafastari

Alhamdulillah.. umur azell betambah setahun lagi. this time around, i celebrated my birthday with dear hubby and baby-on-the-way. nothing much happened today. as early as i-dont-know-what-is-the-time in the morning, dlm mamai2 antara sedar ngan tak, heard dear hubby sang me a birthday song. heheh.. sore pun tgh husky2 lagi baru bangun tido.. well, i bet his eyes were still closed too when he sang that. with his arms still wrapped around me, i think that was the first thing he did once he awaken frm his sleep. so cute! around 7.30 a.m, mak called up to wish me - after i reminded her that today is my birthday. 

kat ofis, takde ape yg menarik. semua orang bz decorating the level for deeparaya competition. since i have no mood to join membzkan diri with them,  stayed put at my place, checking fb while finishing some work i need to present this afternoon. at 2.30 p.m, off to tower. while i was in the elevator to level 42, my phone rang. it was someone from a courier service asking where is silver tower as he needs to courier something to me. since i was in tower and it was nearly 3 p.m (discussion is supposed to start at 3), so i asked that guy to come to tower instead. while waiting for the courier & the boss i need to meet, ate my lunch - roti i bought frm cold storage. at 3.30 p.m, the courier guy arrived, and handed me a big bouquet of red & white roses with ferrero rocher and all.. phew!! sengih sampai ke telinga acik azell mase tu.. hehehe.. called kak azah to keep the flowers for me. yelah kan, takkan nak masuk discussion ngan bunga besar tu.. and the surprise, came from my dear husband, of course!. susah nak dapat bunga dari abg apis nih! hahahah... feeling like flying jek.. sampai mase discussion pun i easily agreed to everything without any sour feeling (walaupun banyak bende kene buat sebenarnye..). after discussion, collected the bouquet frm kak azah & shoot home. at home, dear hubby was waiting. after settling down a bit, he asked me to closed my eyes (siap tutup ngan tudung lagi tu..), and bile bukak jek, 2 piece of cakes siap ngan lilin in front of me.. sweet!! had the cakes together on our couch sampai la his cousin called to fetch him kat lrt. itu ini begitu begini with his cousin, we went for a late dinner kat tony roma's sunway piramid. had my usual all time favourite asian salad with salmon and he had his ribs. at 11-ish, arrived home. it was nice spending the whole time we have with each other. the hugs, the kisses, the 'i love u' - made the entire day so meaningful. when asked, what do i want for my birthday, my answer will be, nothing - but these happiness i have now to be mine forever. Insya Allah.. 

there goes my birthday story for this year. thank you to all friends who wished me thru FB, sms, YM.. thank you!

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

Selamat hari raya to all beautiful blogreaders. walaupun dah almost 2 weeks raye, but still.. sempat lagi kan?

phew! lama tak update this blog of mine. mane taknye, b4 this, ngan rase tak sihatnye.. rase takde mood nak buat everything.. kejap rase ok, kejap tak.. so, whatever i did, semua yg wajib2 jek.. all the sunat2 thingie (read: update blog ni), tolak ke tepi. but now, after almost 3 months rase tak best, skarang i'm at the best state. walaupun rase sungguh gemuk skarang ni..isk...

anyways, this year is the first year pose & beraya with someone i call husband. kalau dolu2 mase zaman mude2 remaja, boleh kire ngan jari baper hari jek acik azell ni berbuka kat rumah. mostly, i'll go out and berbuka with different set of friends almost everyday. and balik rumah utk tido jek.. tu pun sampai rumah dh around midnite. but this year, i didnt go out anywhere.. cuma ade la 2-3 kali berbuka kat luar.. tu pun attending dear hubby's company's iftar, x-aimians iftar gath at mc na's & with kak wtl at carl's jr. the rest of the days, i stayed at home having foods ordered/bought by dear hubby or balik rumah mak. sungguh baik anak mak sorang ni tahun ni.. huhu.. well, mane taknye first week of pose, i still weak from this pregnancy thingie.. second week, dah ok sket, tapi right after berbuka, i threw out everything back and lepas tu confirm akan lembik for the whole nite (sungguh bahaya kalau makan kat luar mase2 tu), 3rd & the last week pose, walaupun dh ok, tapi every ptg after balik keje, rase sungguh tak larat nak buat ape2.. even bile dear hubby suruh mandi pun rase cam nak menangis sebab tak larat sangat..  penat!! not like previous years where i can stay up late, had fun with friends and macam2 lagi laa.. rindu mase2 tu.. tapi ape-apehal pun, i've survived this year's pose! yey!

raya this year, balik pontian. first time beraya jauh from mak ayah. first day raya, as usual.. bz & penat. nasib baik mase tu dah ok. so i can help kakak preparing dishes for raya.  i was so bz with everything sampai at one point bleh terlupa that i'm pregnant. mane taknye, dari pagi tolong kakak masak, hidang foods, basuh pinggan, gelas & periuk belanga yg berat tu and hidang again & basuh lagi.. then pegi beraya, pegi shopping sket for the next day, basuh ayam malam tu & kemas everything.. ended up, my pinggang & belakang sakit sampai hari ni.. malam tu rase sedih aaa sket, sbb nak bermanja ngan mak suruh urut badan pun, mak jauh.. sob..sob.. sesangat sedih.. tapi takdela sampai nenangis bagai.. nangis dlm hati jek.. the second day raya pun, started the day early sbb nak kene masak for sedara mara yg nak datang. since kakak dh balik rumah in law dia, sape lagi yg kene handle the kitchen kalau tak adik ipar dia nih. itu ini begitu begini, everything settled and after Maghrib, bertolak balik KL. exhausted, i slept almost all the way back sampai rumah.

third raya & onwards, i was at kelantan with mak, ayah, dear hubby, ijas & her family. mak ayah nak memperkenalkan menantu baru diaorang kat sedara mara kat kelantan. so, for 4 days there, kami berjalan jek, visiting all the relatives. makan macam2. raya la katekan.. i was eating this & that sampai one point, i cannot eat anymore. muntah2. nasib baik it lasts for 1 day jek. seronok balik kelantan this time around (well, everytime balik pun seronok), besides i have someone to intoduce as my husband (so, takyah menjawab soklan2 cepumas frm relatives dah), i also have the answer if ade cousins yg nakal2 tanye "apsal makin besar?".. hahahha... oh yes! i am getting bigger now.. isk! another thing, got to meet mc ann yg sungguh aktif berniaga kat KB Mall. thanks ann, for spending time with us that nite. :D

there goes my raya for this year. started working on monday, after a week my mind tak pk anything abt work or AA. as at now, i'm in my 17 weeks pregnancy. my appetite is coming back, my energy leveled up and i can now feel something in my tummy.. butterfly is flying around. when i sit still memalam, ade la rase knocking sana sini.. or, it rumbles inside. cute! kekadang tu cam terkejut gak bile tetiba jek rase something kat dlm perut. well... not exactly kat perut laa.. bawah perut. hopefully my baby is growing happily & healthly inside. his/her atuk & nenek really want their cucu ni to born healthy & happy.. now, whatever things i told my parents, they really take it seriously. sebutla ape2 pun, mak & ayah akan terus bergegas mencari/buat. sampai kekadang tu, i have to think twice before telling them anything. well.. nak wat camane kan.. anak manje mak & ayah. hmmm...

oklah.. need to continue work. AA dh bising.. bosan betul! how i wish i dont have to deal with him anymore... sigh..

have a beautiful day, beautiful ppl!!   

phew!! just threw out everything i had for lunch b4.. tak sampai 1/2 jam pun the foods remain in my system. makan kenyang sangat kot.. tu yg sampai keluar balik everything. anyways, walked to pavillion this afternoon. after like 2 months tak pegi sana tetengahari, today ntah nape rase cam nak pegi pavillion, surveying foods for lunch. i was so bored with the thoughts of "what to eat?" every lunches & dinners. right now i have no appetite at all utk makan. dgr perkataan foods made me feel eewww. because of that, dapur pun lama tak berasap. kalau dulu, sedaya upaya i'll prepare dinner at home and breakfast for my dearie husband, never missed! walaupun it just roti with tuna - mesti ade bekal for him. but all that cuma tahan baper minggu jek when after that, urs truly ni jadi very penat, sick with nausea, my sense of smell jadi haru biru - cant even stand my own CD perfumes!, no appetite at all - tapi kene makan sbb kalau perut kosong lagi parah, mood swing - cepat betul rase sedih & nak nangis and 1001 macam lagi laa..as at now, i'm holding on to the fruits - the only foods i can eat non-stop without purging it out again. dear husband, being the sweetest guy ever, will always make sure stok buah sentiasa ade dlm peti ais. and lagi sweet, dia siap potong kekecik lagi buah2 tu for my bekal to ofis. not only that, stok susu enfamama pun sentiasa ade and he'll make sure i drink the not-so-sedap milk tu everyday.    

btw.. yesterday marked 2 months both of us disatukan as husband & wife. 2 great, roller coaster months.. :D my habit in the morning nowadays is to look at dear husband's sleeping face (sambil kacau2 dia tido), and realized that i'm falling in love with him everyday. it is a nice feeling and made me kinda cheerful in the morning despite of rase nak muntah each time gosok gigi or bile terlambat makan breakfast..

last nite, went dinner at tony roma's - urs truly ni ntahapa-hapa sket.. takde selera nak makan, but always craving for salads (salad mahal2 pulak tu!!).. last week, had salad at nandos. the nite before, had salad at chillis with kak azah and last nite, dalam tak larat balik keje & muntah, told dear husband rase cam nak makan salad kat tony roma's.. so, he brought me there to satisfy my craving for tony roma's asian salad with salmon.. sedap!! always my favorite. balik tu, terus tak sedar ape atas sofa while dear husband pegi ofis. woke up at 12 a.m just to change baju & pengsan lagi dalam bilik. when dear husband balik kul 2 pagi baru bangun freshen up everything. tapi lepas tu pengsan semula after having sebiji epal hijau to surpress rase nak muntah + lapar. and last nite, i also realized, i cant fit my fav jeans anymore.. everything is ok with the jeans, except for i cant button it up already. that was my fav jeans sbb the only jeans i can wear without belt. so, mmg dia muat2 jelah.. and because of that, the jeans is the first pant i need to let go.. huhuuu...

i'm having my mix fruits now. the second bekas already. the 1st bekas dh habis pagi tadi. right now, i realize i cannot walk as fast as b4. cepat sangat rase mengah. mase pegi pavillion tadi pun, i was panting macam berlari la plak. plus rase cam melayang2 pun ade.. maybe panas tadi kot.. kul 12.30 tghari mase tu.. nasib baik sampai gak ofis. i actually need to finish up a document - well, it is actually AA's part. but since he is going to JB for another project, sape lagi yg kene buatkan kalau tak urs truly ni? sigh.. sabar jelah..

oklah.. gotta resume work. have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

of a wonderful journey...

lunch time now.. just finish 2 pairs of roti with kaya & planta. no appetite to eat anything else.. plus the "feeling" i'm feeling now is so disturbing.. nadia said, nausea is sometimes just a "feeling".. so, i'm bearing with it..

oh well.. it's too early to feel anything, i guess.. saje je acik azell ni yg mengada2. calculated in one of the website given by dearest sister, i am about 5 weeks... hmmm.. frankly, i dont know how i should feel.. excited? well.. takdela excited sgt pun.. more to teruja with the miracle that is happening in me now. each time bace abt all these things, lagi teruja.. with each week development, sometimes cam tak caya jek semua tu tgh on-going inside my body. tapi ape-apehal pun, Alhamdulillah.. really hope this little sesame seed will grow to be the most handsome/beautiful (very fair skin, with curly hair, chubby cheek...amboih!!! melampau plak berangan! heheh) baby.. or babies. Insya Allah..

my mood swings gile2 la ni.. with dear hubby not with me, lagi buat urs truly ni rase ntahapa2. well, i know i have to be strong. this is my task to do, mine alone. there is no one will take care of me, but myself.. so, be strong, ME! heheh..  once my fren pernah cakap, "i'm ready to have kid when i think i'm ready to raise him/her alone without his/her father".. hmm.. that's tough. anyways, really hope i have high endurance level to be a full time employee (meetings, projects, documentations, traffic jam), full time housewife (cooking, washing, cleaning, ironing) and a fulltime ibu-to-be...    

oh i am so feeling unwell - emotionally & physically!

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!

29/07/09 - sebulan sudah berlalu. cepatnye masa.. it means dah sebulan acik azell ni bertukar status jadi wife orang. sebulan yg penuh ngan macam2 citer.. bile teringat balik how bz, how tired & how kelam kabut semua orang menjayakan majlis kenduri at both sides, rase cam... phew! nasib baik laa kawen ni sekali jek.. Insya Allah. anyways.. setakat ni, perjalanan hidup tak baper stabil lagi.. every weekends mesti ade plan itu ini begitu begini. so far, start balik from pontian, we've been to perak, cameron highland, genting highland and last weekend, pegi melaka. next weekend plak, dear hubby pegi outstation seminggu. right after that, planned nak gi tengganu.. though semua tu jenis yg over the weekend nye activities, still.. spending time together is always lovely.

thank you to all my friends yg hadir to my kenduri - dengkil & pontian. really appreciate your presence & presents.*hugs*

i'm so sleepy right now.. nak kate tido lewat, tak jugak.. hmm.. sbb terlebih tido kot. plus i have documentations tasks yang sungguh membosankan to do. oh well! esok petang ade meeting. hopefully tak ngantuk mase tu..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

dedicated to my dearie hubby.. happy birthday sayang.. semoga jodoh kite berpanjangan hingga ke akhir hayat.. Insya Allah..