Happy new year to all beautiful ppl!! (though i'm not sure ade lagi tak beautiful ppl yg baca blog bersawang ni..)

dah 4 hari 2011 berlalu. nothing much to reminisce in 2011. life as usual. mundane with the same routine. work wise, successfully completed Phase 1 of the project. sungguh challenging! dgn PM yg ntahapa2.. ngan project team yg ntahapa2 jugak. pening! but somehow, i survived. ingatkan after phase 1 completed, i can transfer to another project. sungguh tak sanggup nak stay for phase 2, but somehow, things happened differently. seemed like my fate mmg with the project. so, back to the same haywire project to continue phase 2. well,  what doesn't kill  u, makes u stronger, right? so, the project did not kill me though a lot of things happened that made me feel like to scream. after sometimes, i've absorbed all the bad things and able to face the reality in more appropriate way. congrates me!

personal wise, had this plan to conceive a sister/brother to arissa hannah. but the plan was actually planned to be executed after my birthday - October onwards. somehow.. had a great vacation with dear hubby & daugther at swiss garden lumut in the middle of June. a month after that, cannot help but to do a pregnancy test which gave me the result instantly - positive!! haish! terawal la pulak.. anyways, rezeki Tuhan nak bagi, Alhamdulillah.. so, hannah will get a sister for her 2nd birthday nanti. ok la tu, 2 tahun gap jugak.. :D

we moved back to my parents house in dengkil. no more staying in sri petaling. after almost 3 years, we've decided to let go the house. reason being, with a new baby coming, we dont trust to leave both hannah & her baby sister with our maid alone in the house after i get back to work and we dont want to pay the house rent for nothing - like we did after hannah was born. it was a sad decision indeed. though i'm not a big fan to that house, but it was a house both me & dear hubby lived in after we got married. it was our love nest. where we lived our own life - away from my parents and other family members. and dear hubby has completed the house with everything a wife could ask. everything! it was the house where i detected my both pregnancies. it was a very small house (compared to my parents house) but it was our first house. sad.. everytime i went there to pack and move our stuff, my heart was miserable. until now, i still feel miserable..

new year's eve.. cooked mushroom soup for breakfast. had no mood to go out and watch bunga api plus hannah was already asleep. so spent the nite in bed with dear hubby. he cooked maggi-dalam-cawan and we had it in our dimmed room. nice.. well, better than the previous year.

1st Jan 2012 - something bad happened in the family. am thankful i was not there to witness the incident, but it did make my mind & heart disturbed. and until now, when i think back of what was happening and wonder what will happen in the future, i am scared. it has been 4 days i've been crying inside out. suddenly i'm not sure how our future will be. but i really hope all these will pass.. like always. i love everyone but if something happen (Na'uzubillah), i'll be hating someone very, very, very much. and this hatred will not only effect me, but ppl around me. i know life is a circle and we had our "up" time where everyone is happy, but i'm not ready if this year will be our "down" time. oh well, i hope it is only me who think nonsensically. like what dear hubby always said "ibu ni suka fikir bebukan.. ". 

anyways, as for now, i am 28 weeks pregnant, the project has Go-Live quite successfully, moved all our stuff to dengkil, arissa hannah will be enrolled to playgroup starting from 7 Jan and apart from the incident on 1st Jan, everything seems fine and smooth.

Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur kami, berikan kami kesihatan yg baik dan kekalkan kebahagian kami di dunia dan akhirat.. amin..

Really hope all the dugaan tahun baru will be over soon and everything will back to normal. Insya Allah.

Have a nice day & great year ahead, beautiful ppl!! 

to my dearest Arissa Hannah. She is 1 year old now. cepat sangat masa berlalu. Ingat lagi tahun lepas masa dia lahir, the best weekend in my life so far.. lagi best dari kawen ari tu.. hahha.. tapi serius, walaupun sakit, penat, ngantuk & 1001 macam lagi, having her with me is like .. wordless! sampai skarang & forever, she is the best thing that ever been mine. looking at her, rasa bersyukur sangat because she is mine. totally mine! huhuu.. skarang dia dh setahun. perangai pun makin banyak. and soo bijak.. really miss her everytime.

skarang ni banyak bende yg dia dh bleh buat. walaupun takleh berjalan lagi, tapi asyik nak berdiri jelah keje dia skarang. each time ayah dia dukung, mesti lambai semua orang & ckp "bah baai...". cute! for her, ibu is "aah..bbbuuu".. cuma ayah jek yg dia sebut eloknye..yelah.. anak ayah la katekan. Hannah ni, nampak jek cam baik. taapi, dont mess with her. selalu la gaduh ngan abang ameer dia berebut toys. abang ameer jerit, dia pun jerit jugak. ni rasenye kalau dia dh pandai jalan, sure kene kejar abang ameer kat rumah tu. banyak la bende baru yg dia buat each day. dari first day dia lahir sampai hari ni, i always proud of her.  

anyways, we held her birthday makan2 at kebun atok & nenek on sunday, 6 march that day. saje jelah nak gather with everyone. i cooked spageti, potato salad, bbq ayam & ikan. it was nice. simple event but satisfiying. aunty cekya & aunty wtl sponsored the marvellous carrot cheesecake. *thanks darlings!*. banyak la jugak hadiah yang hannah dapat. sepanjang kat kebun, as usual dia baik jek tak merengek. makan jek semua bende yang disuap. sekali jek dia menangis kuat. tu pun sebab jatuh basikal sampai lebam dahi. the rest of the day, dia happy2 jek with everyone.

on her birthday itself, spent the whole day with her. it was nice. bergolek2 atas tilam sambil dia ngenpeng cara freestyle dia tuh... oh, i'm so in love with my baby, who is a toddler now.

Arissa Hannah, selamat hari lahir, sayang. Ibu & ayah sayang Arissa Hannah and will always pray for you to be anak ibu & ayah yang baik, bijak, rajin, berani, sihat, happy, kuat, sabar, solehah dah berjaya dunia & akhirat.. Insya Allah..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

goodbye 2010, hello 2011!!

maybe it's not too late for this entry.. baru 3 hari in 2011 anyways..

so, ada apa dengan 2010? nothing much, tapi sungguh significant. the most significant one is of course, birth of Arissa Hannah on 7 march 10. tepat on her EDD. pastu pengalaman first time berpantang yang sungguh tak best. dengan tangan sakit kiri & kanan sampai nak angkat hannah pun tak boleh. sedih sangat mase tu. kebetulan, maid pun takde, so, tinggal la sensorang ngan baby kecik kat rumah tu. mak & ayah pegi kedai with ameer. dear hubby gi keje.. urs truly ni la dengan terkial2 nak uruskan hannah kalau dia nangis ke, tukar diaper ke.. dengan tangan yg sakit.. dahla mase tu hannah tak reti nak latch on mase breastfeed. so, kene pam & panaskan susu each time dia menjerit lapar. mase tu, kepala ni macam takde pk lain, risau.. takut.. seriau.. semua ade. tu la orang kate pompuan lepas bersalin takleh stress2 kot.. mahu meroyan. tapi Alhamdulillah.. after few weeks, things got better.. dah tak risau kalau hannah menangis ke, ape ke... kalau tak, even hari nak hujan pun azell dh berdebar2 takut.. apetah lagi satu hari tu ade ular masuk rumah.. giler menggigil sbb mase tu mmg sensorang.. terus tepon ayah kat kedai & duduk dalam bilik kunci pintu rapat2.. sampai skarang still rase trauma & bleh terbayang2 ular tu atas meja kat ruang tamu.. Na'uzubillah! tapi, tu semua citer dulu2.. pengalaman berpantang anak sulung. rase macam best sangat bile dh cukup 44 days. and now, hannah pun dah besar & bijak. dah macam2 perangai dia.. geram sungguh tgk dia kalau dia buat perangai cute dia tu..

dalam tahun 2010, pak ngah & mak su meninggal.. selang sebulan jek. Arwah pak ngah mmg selalu sakit. so, everyone dah prepared. but arwah mak su meninggal mengejut. since mase tu hannah still kecik & azell baru jek habis pantang, so, we didnt go to visit both arwah. sedih sangat mase tu, especially bila tahu mak su meninggal. terus terbayang muka dia yang sebijik muka mak (but she's prettier). Al-Fatihah to both pak ngah & mak su..

jun 2010, my baby sister got married. huhu.. the last wedding in the family. akhirnya ayah & mak bleh tarik nafas lega sebab semua anak2 dia dah kawen. skarang ni, kalau semua orang ade kat rumah, penuh depan rumah tu ngan kete and lagi meriah rumah kalau semua orang berkumpul. best!

hmm... ape lagi yek? work wise, nothing much happen.. secured myself in new big financial project with lots of problem from start until now. PM pun dh bertukar and tendering process is still on going. first push factor i got frm the company setakat ni. let see how tahun 2011 ni, if the push factor still occurs, need to find another alternative seriously.

anyways, 2010 is indeed a balanced year. the best & the bad (not the worst laa).. really hope 2011 will bring more best things into my life and all of us. Insya Allah.

have a blessed & wonderful 1431 & 2011, beautiful ppl!!

hmm.. lama tak update blog ni. arissa hannah pun dh nak masuk 5 bulan dh. cepat jek that baby of mine besar. dah ade perangai sendiri. dah boleh bergolek, main ngan kaki sendiri.. makin comel & bijak.. seronok! :D

anyways, tadi mase on the way nak gi keje, ntah kenapa tetiba rase rindu.. rindu ngan zaman muda remaja.. zaman single mingle.. zaman "kegemilangan".. (macamla gemilang sangat pun!).. hu ha ngan kenkawan, pegi travel every year ngan the girls.. mase tu rase macam takyah pk ape2 pun.. takyah pk pasal orang lain.. takde orang yg dependent to me.. takyah take care of anyone else except for myself.. mmg free sesangat.. mak & ayah pun takdela nak kate ape walaupun tahu diaorang selalu membebel abt me to my sisters.. mmg serius la rase rindu.. bile nampak plane, teringat saat2 best gi travel ngan kenkawan. gi KK, kuching, jakarta, krabi.. saat2 best yg takyah pk pasal ape2, terus beli tiket & fly gi JB or KB, happy2 ngan family... pastu bile tgk menara KL pun, teringat saat2 best gi dinner ngan ofismate, bawak mak & ayah gi lunch kat sana.. and gi bukak pose ngan kakak2 ofis yg best.. semua yg best2..

but now, everything dh bertukar.. whatever i want to do or go now, i have to think.. not about me, but about my babies.. the big & the small one, of course.. hehhe.. kalau dulu nak gi memana, just capai kunci kete & terus pegi.. skarang ni, nak gi beli kain raya pun made me think like crazy.. bile nak pegi? kat mane nak pegi? lama mane nak pegi? apetah lagi kalau nak berhuha ngan kenkawan.. laaagila tak termasuk dlm senarai aktiviti harian..

but then..... i looked at this guy who's driving beside me.. someone i love most. and all the kerinduan masa lampau tu hilang.. because i know, i wont trade what i have now with anything at all. looking at this guy, remind me to my baby who is really dependent on me.. my life is totally changed now..

it's not that i dont like my life now.. i love it, it just maybe because i used to live as a single, happy & ignorance person for so long, being tied up with someone and tetiba terus ade someone cute fully dependent on me, rase mcm culture shock sket.. heheh.. yelah.. urs truly ni hidup membujang for 30 years before i found my other half..

anyways.. as i said.. i love my life now, and wont trade all these with anything.. i dont think i can function well without my 2 babies now.. and of course my families laa.. so, i better stop babbling now.. (banyaknyee now!)

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

macam best la plak OST citer adamaya nih.. usaha acik azell mencari lirik & beryoutube nak dgr the full song. bile tgk lirik dia pun, cam best la plak.. so, here it goes, dedicated specially to my dearie hubby..

Semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku
Tiada lagi keresahan
Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku
Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan

Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah

Maaf jikaku tidak sempurna
Tika bahagia mula menjelma
Bila keyakinan datang merasa
Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran

Mencintai dirimu
Merindui dirimu
Memiliki dirimu
Hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu

Kau yang bernama cinta
Kau yang memberi rasa
Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia
Hingga aku terasa indah

Kau yang bernama cinta
Hingga aku rasa indah

hmm.. baby kecikku tgh menjerit kat bilik nenek dia.. gotta go..

have nice day, beautiful ppl!!

about a month & a day ago..

saturday, 6 March 2010

Pagi

went to weekly checkup at klinik an-nur. after did the routine check-ups, went into dr. kham's office.

dr. kham: hmm.. ur baby is big. baru bukak 1 cm. bile EDD? tomorrow, right? i dont want to wait any longer. takut baby lagi besar. so, kalau tak deliver lagi hari ni or esok, monday morning kite induce. ok, mama?

me: err.. ok (nervous sungguh mase tu.. )

dr. kham: so, monday morning at 8 a.m, pergi terus hospital. kite jumpa kat labour room nanti. 

me: ok, thanks doctor.. (sambil hulur tangan nak salam & kuar from her office with dear hubby).

petang

tido for the whole petang sbb boring dear hubby takde and everyone busy with their own things. tapi b4 that ckp kat dear hubby rase cam nak makan kek cekelat yg sedap yg kat jusco mid valley. so, since hari isnin nak induce, might as well gi cari dulu segala jenis bende yg nak mkn before start pantang nanti. dear hubby suggested utk pegi mid val malam ni after dia balik frm ofis..

malam

as planned, went to mid val. on the way pegi, dah rase sakit macam senggugut. tapi once a while jek & the pain is very mild. so, i just ignored it. kat mid val, beli la segala mala ape yg nak dimakan.. kek cekelat, cekelat tiramisu, ubi bakar, buah berangan.. walked around and bile kedai semua dh tutup, baru both of us balik. on the way balik, the pain is stronger & lagi kerap. about every half an hour..but still, urs truly senyap lagi. around 1 a.m, mase dah ready nak tido, asked dear hubby, agak2 sakit camana baru nak gi spital yek? dia dah gabra2 dah.. well, mase tu mmg la rase sakit makin kerap. but still bearable. so, asked dear hubby to sleep first. yelah kan, kalau gi spital skarang pun, bukannye ade any ubat utk bagi tak sakit. bile dear hubby dah tido, i tried to sleep myself. tapi sakit tu makin lama makin kuat & lagi kerap. bile dh tak tahan baring, went out and paced kat luar. sebab bace dlm buku/internet, kalau false contraction, bile jalan2 sakit tu hilang. about sejam lebih jugak la acik azell ni mundar mandir kat luar bilik. tapi sakit still tak hilang2.. mase tu mmg dh gabra jugak sebenarnye.. sbb bile mengenangkan the only way to hilangkan the sakit is to deliver the baby.. haish! nerves betul.. around 3.30 a.m, baring semula dlm bilik sambil check timing sakit baper minit sekali. sambil2 tu hoping dear hubby terjaga sebab tak sampai hati lak nak kejutkan dia.. but, my hope answered bile tetiba dear hubby tersedar & upon knowing my contractions is around every 2 minutes, dia bingkas bangun & bersiap & grabbed all the bags yg dh lama ready kat tepi dinding and ready to go. urs truly plak yg relax gi basuh muke, tukar baju, applied some lip-ice (yelah kan, kalau false labour, at least bleh trus gi breakfast. kalau gi spital ngan baju kelawar tu, takke cam malu jek nanti..) so, 4 a.m in the morning, kami berdua dgn beg berbondong2, kuar rumah gi spital. tak bagitau sape pun mase tu. even mak & ayah.

sunday, 7 March 2010

sampai kat spital, the nurse terus ushered me to a room - which is the labour room itself. bile nurse checked, dh 3 cm and dia suruh dear hubby terus register me semua. memula tu bleh lagi senyum2, borak2 ngan dear hubby. and sempat tertido mase dear hubby pegi masjid kat depan spital for subuh. but after my waterbroke at 6.30 a.m, the pain makin lama makin unbearable. nurse tanye, nak epidural tak? but since tak pernah consider pun selama2 ni to take epidural, i refused it. and the pain, wohoooo!!! dh takde gap every 2 minutes dah.. sakit, sakit & sakit! dear hubby coached how to breathe pun rase macam sooo annoying. giler sakit, ok! dr. kham came at 8-ish a.m. she checked, dah 7 cm. another 3 cm to go.. asked her to prescribe something utk tahan sakit. and she gave me ubat mengantuk. well, takdela la kurang pun sakit tu.. sama jek.. tapi rase cam dlm mimpi. sbb mamai ngantuk. 9.30 a.m, dr. kham checked lagi. ok.. dh 10 cm, but baby still tinggi. so, she asked me to teran sket2. 10.30 a.m, dr. dah ready semua and the battle begun. since my precious daughter ni besar cam ibu dia jugak, mmg payah la nak kuarkan. plus, azell dh penat & mamai. but after 3 times dr. kham tarik with vacuum, at 10.58 a.m, 7 March 2010, Arissa Hannah was born! right after she put my baby on my stomach, and i got to see her for the first time, dia terus jab me with another dose of ubat tido, resulting urs truly ni tak sedar ape sampai la ke tengahari.

with all that.. my life changed completely.. turned upside down 360 degrees.. and yesterday, my little sunshine is 1 month old! :D 1 great roller coaster month. with the sleepless nites semua.. sampai skarang still berpeluh2 mase mandikan dia.. heheh.. nak2, mase mood dia tak baper baik.. phew! and semalam mase pegi post-natal checkup, my weight turun 24.7 kgs within 1 month! hahah.. banyak kan berat acik azell naik mase pregnant? :D if lose another 2 kg, my berat will be like the first time timbang mase first pre-natal check-up, around 8-9 months ago..  

now i have my own sunshine. well, sunshines to be exact. dear hubby & my little baby. dear hubby is the most happiest person since 1 month ago. yelah kan, our daughter is anak ayah.. semua yg tengok dia, mesti ckp ikut muka ayah.. well, her blood type pun bleh ikut darah ayah dia though my blood type is actually the dominant one. hmm.. takpelah, orang ckp, rezeki tu kalau anak pompuan ikut ayah dia... amiin.. :D

oklah.. sambung later.. bateri laptop dh low.

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

Arissa Hannah bte Muhamad Hafidz was born exactly on her EDD - Sunday, 7 March 2010, 10.58 a.m @ Hospital Pakar An-Nur Bangi. Weight 4.15 kg, delivered normal assisted with vacuum.

Alhamdulillah.. Thank you for all your prayers & well wishes. :D

Have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

38 weeks & 3 days now.. huhu.. rase cam saspen jek skarang ni. orang kate, it's like a time bomb. bebila jek bleh meletup. really hope hannah lahir on this friday, 26 feb.. bukan ape, tak significant pun 26 feb tu.. tapi, dlm kalender hijrah, it's on 12 Rabiul Awal. sama birthdate ngan Rasulullah. and i was aiming that date since masuk 7 bulan hari tu lagi.. mmg bebetul hoping laa.. siap bleh ckp kat doktor lagi dh pilih date to deliver. so, ni tinggal lagi 2 days before friday, 26 Feb.. tapi tak rase ape2 pun lagi.. tak rase sakit.. tak rase contraction.. tak sakit belakang.. tak sakit pinggang... tak kuar any "show".. hmm.. agak2 sempat tak nak deliver sama date ngan Rasulullah's birthdate ni eh? last monday, pegi check, doc kham suruh tunggu jek.. sbb nak deliver normal kan.. Insya Allah...

skarang ni still pegi ofis.. walaupun malas teramat. tapi sbb kat rumah pun takde ape nak buat, bosan gak. kalau ade kete, bleh gak gi mengukur alamanda tetiap hari.. tapi kat ofis, like almost everyone akan tanye... bile nak due ni? sbb perut dah besar giler and maybe i look so fragile.. heheh.. yelah, kalau belon tu, dah lama meletup sbb besar sangat.. :D my baby now is whooping 3.6kg.. frame besar, kate doc kham.. with long legs.. betul nih! tulang peha dia panjang.. heheh.. ade can jadi model si arissa hannah ni.. huhuuu.. jauh betul imaginasi ibu.. ape2hal pun tak kisah la dia camana pun, as long as she is perfect & healthy, Alhamdulillah..

hmm.. dearie hubby is busy right now. every week ade keje malam. but since skarang dh pindah balik kat rumah mak, takde la seriau sangat kalau kene tinggal sensorang sbb dia kene keje memalam. but still la.. tak suka betul the feeling of he's not around. and hannah pun cam tau2 jek ayah dia takde.. senyap jek dia.. once ayah dia balik, mula la menendang2 sakan.. mlm smlm pun tido sensorang jugak.. nasib baik dear hubby ade belikan buku citer kat mak buyung ni.. complete set of twilight series, ok! heheh.. so, instead of layan rase sedih takde orang kat sebelah nak peluk, read the book sampai berpinar biji mata dek ngantuk teramat sangat.. so, bile dh camtu, tutup buku jek terus lena tak sedar ape.. sesedar jek, dear hubby dah kat sebelah & tgh gosok perut menenangkan si hannah yg "seronok" sbb ayah dia dh balik..

anyways.. tadi ade 2 of my frens dok citer pasal baby memasing.. sorang tu, dh selamat delivered her precious baby after months of suffering sebab doc kate baby ade masalah. and the other one, after i dont know how many times she told me that she wanted a second baby, and at last she's pregnant - tadi got her msg, "i think we just lost it".. luluh sangat rase hati mase tu.. though this will be her second one, but still.. she is really trying & hoping for it. lagi la, dia nak twin plak tu.. cannot imagine if it really a twin, and things happen like this. phew!!! sedihnyee... and bile dgr citer2 camni, tetiba acik azell jadi emo jap.. emo ngan those ppl yg simply buang the babies merata2.. sedangkan orang lain sanggup berhabis, bermandi airmata sebab  nakkan a baby. walaupun membuyung ni takdela senang, apelagi nak deliver a human being nanti, but still.. i wanna baby!! (and blessed to have one in my tummy now.. Alhamdulillah)

dear hubby just called.. he's on the way to fetch me up here.. tomorrow is the last day before i go to maternity leave. kalau hannah tak kuar lagi on friday, next week nak mintak MC ngan doc. kham. oh hannah sayang.. kuar la hari jumaat ni ye.... normal! :D

have a nice day, beautiful ppl! 

today is 14 jan 10. dh setengah bulan dah kite semua ni kat dlm tahun 2010. cepat jek. ape perkembangan sepanjang 14 hari ni? as for me, in term of work, takde perkembangan langsung. it seems like everyone cam tanak kacau urs truly ni by not giving any tasks or project sampai after confinement.. yelah kan, tak sampai 2 bulan pun lagi.. kalau bagi keje ape2 karang, dibuatnye si hannah comel ni nak kuar cepat, takke kelam kabut semua orang. so.. bak kate AA, relax while it lasts.. huhu..

this week, masuk 32 minggu already. so, officially bile orang tanye dh baper bulan, i can say, 8 bulan dah.. perut ni makin lama rase makin berat. yelah.. almost 2 weeks ago, in my last check up, hannah dh 2 kg. she gained 1 kg in 1 month.. another check up will be next weekend. i'm not worried abt hannah's weight.. but more concern on my weight.. selera makan ni cam bertambah2 jek.. i wonder how much will i gained untuk sampaikan to the next check up tu. jangan sampai kene bebel ngan doktor lagi, dahlaa.. tak suke betul if ppl asked me to stop gaining weight mase2 pregnant ni.. camana nak buat tu?? haish!! semua tu will distort my mind and psychology, resulting tak lalu nak makan laa.. itu la.. ini laa.. bile tak lalu nak makan, mula la perut masuk angin = muntah = lembik.. tak suke betul rase mase tu. sampai nak bercakap pun tak larat. same goes if i am too tired. ppl said, jgn layan sangat rase penat tu.. and i tried not to layan sangat.. but i'll ended up... hmm... terduduk tepi mesin basuh.. not able to do anything (nasib baik tak pengsan jek), sampai la dear hubby came to rescue.. so, camana? but as at now, i still can walk to klcc frm my office & back laa.. walaupun if b4 this i can reach klcc in 10 minutes, skarang ni ade la dlm 15 - 20 minutes berjalan baru sampai... hehe.. slow giler rasenye acik azell jalan skarang (and ade la terasa cam peguin jugak kekadang tu.. ahaks!)

tak sabar nak tgk, peluk, cium arissa hannah ni.. nonie dh selamat delivered her cute lil hazel.. ni 7 years later, ade la status kat FB memasing, "aimy (lynx)/an-nadiyah (lynn)/hazel (nonie)/hannah (me)/qaisara (kak wawa) first day of school".. whoaah...semua princess!  :D hehe...  and ramai lagi sebenarnye anak2 yg sebaya tahun ni. meriah! with nonie is done with her turn, it is now my turn lak.. another 51 days to go.. my left wrist makin sakit (especially bangun pagi2.. sampai nak kuar air mata kekadang tu..), tulang tongkeng pun akan sakit kalau duduk lama2, nak shift side left & right mase tido pun makin susah, sangat cepat rase penat skarang ni, perut pun rase makin memberat.. huhuu.. azell rase semua symptoms in 8 months pregnancy i read in books/internet. in fact, i actually dealt with all pregnancy symptoms sepanjang 8 bulan ni.. daripada morning sickness, sampai la carpal tunnel syndrome (hence, my painful wrist)..  takde satu pun yg azell tak rase.. :D so, am i the lucky one? hahaha.... oh well, anything & everything for this little arissa hannah.. :) semoga dia menjadi seorang anak yg mempunyai keazaman yg kuat & penuh dengan kasih sayang.. Insya Allah..

esok hari jumaat.. i have plan already mase lunch. nak mkn dim sum @ nov0tel hotel with kak azah. nasib baik laa she is willing to temankan kawan dia yg berperut besar (dan berselera besar) ni pegi sana. kalau tak, sian anak i nanti kempunan nak makan dim sum.. hahaha..

hmm.. skarang dh pukul 6.45 ptg... penat dh ni.. tapi baru dpt sms from dear hubby kate dia baru habis meeting. adela dlm 1/2 an hour lagi kene tunggu. the pitfall of not driving to work - i have to wait for dear hubby to pick me up..  nak drive sendiri, tak larat sbb my left wrist is really painful. ape lagi driving with steering yg tk power. nak pusing2 steering tu, mahu mengah acik azell nih.. well, takat mengah takpe lagi.. tapi kalau takbleh maneuver langsung sbb tangan sakit, how? hmm... so, nak taknak.. stay jelah kat ofis tunggu cik abang amik..

oklah.. mata dh berpinar tgk screen ni.. have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

today is the last day in 2009. sungguh banyak things happening kat dlm tahun 2009 ni. yang paling significant is my status changed from bujang trang-tang-tang, to someone else's wife.. and changed lagi few weeks after that when i got to know there's someone is growing inside my belly.. huhuu.. all within a year. but of course.. the changes are wonderful and magical. full of ups & downs.. smiles, laughters and tears.. sometimes, bile teringat semula all the things i did in the first half of the year, rase cam rindu jek mase2 bujang dulu.. happy2 ngan kenkawan almost every nite.. berdating2 ngan dear fiance mase tu sambil cari barang2 for the wedding.. nice!! but i wud never trade what i got at the second half of the year ni with anything else. having someone to call a husband and being loved as a wife - priceless!! and after all these years, never thought that i'll be married in 2009 - with someone i knew years before. ingatkan dapat orang yg luar dari circle of frens.. tup2.. laaaa... ngan kawan sekelas jugak rupanye.. heheh.. the wedding was wonderful. everything was almost perfect. still remember the nikah nite.. my best girlfrens and families were there in the mosque, witnessing the moment. sekali lafaz jek, i am his. rase cam tak caya pun ade mase tu. although ade la hiccups sane sini during the wedding, but i can forget abt that. tapi ape2 hal pun, nasib baik laa kawen ni sekali jek (Insya Allah). sbb cam serik nak mengharungi detik2 sebelum tu.. ngan bz with preparationnye.. ngan penat nye.. ngan cabaran yg dtg from out of nowhere.. ngan duit yg mengalir laju cam air.. heheheh.. Alhamdulillah.. we've settled down quite ok now.

this year, ape yg terjadi mostly in my personal life. work wise, takde ape sangat yg happening. project halted.. and maybe will be scrapped. there goes all the works done in 2 years.. semua bakal dibakulsampahkan by next year. my KPI mesti low gegila for this year. yelah.. dh baper bulan i'm not chargeable here. feels like makan gaji buta. though not my fault, but still rase tak best jugak laa.. earlier this year, things were fine with my project. went for endless meetings.. we were trying very hard to accomplish everything.. until at one point, everything turned to be a waste of time & effort. so, since then, urs truly stays idle. hopefully by january nx year, things are back to normal. tapi.. mase tu dh 8 bulan dah.. risau sungguh kalau dah tak larat nak pk pasal keje or back into meetings & stuff mase tu.. hmm.. camne eh?

family matters.. amal & aniq were born this year. dh 10 orang dh cucu mak & ayah..  next year, tambah lagi sorang.. meriah! adik started working after years of studying. at last, she has her own money to spend. our family keep on growing this year.. and Alhamdulillah, amin's business is stabilising also. everything & everyone is doing fine this year. nothing else i can say for all the prosperities except for Alhamdulillah... all the thanks to the Almighty for all the blessings.. :)

i am 7 months along now. heartburn jek manjang la ni.. tak mkn pedas pun rase gak heartburn.. ape lagi kalau mkn pedas.. terbakar!! (like skarang ni.. ). tonite, tak tau nak celebrate new year kat mane. we have no plan for that. unlike several years back.. still remember, on new year eve 2007, i spent the nite on the phone with a fren i called abg apis. a year after that, eve of 2008, celebrated with my dear someone... eve of 2009, spent the nite with my dear fiance.. and tonite, i'll be celebrating it with my dear hubby - and baby in my tummy.. :D cool! ape-apehal pun, i'm so glad and thankful this year has past with so many "achievements" in my life. next year, lagi banyak challenges akan dtg.. being a wife, ibu & having a career to secure.. hopefully everything will be as good & as smooth as this year. Insya Allah.

hmmm.. azam tahun ni accomplished tak? accomplished in certain things.. but jadi lagi worst in another things.. sigh!! so, next year nye azam - to be better in everything. Insya Allah..

have a good day, dear beautiful ppl.. have a blessed & happy new year. goodbye 2009 & hello 2010!!!