bored monday. AA is on MC today, leaving me to handle the project. nothing much to do actually. sent an email to P3tr0nas PM for the update on his meeting with their mgmt last week. and then, ammended the SC slide for the project - frm 2 pages reduce it to only a page. lunch is half an hour away but i dont know what to eat. macam malas jek nak kuar ngan diaorang ni. maybe i just tapau and eat in.

had lunch already. tapau-ed roti, roti & roti and had them at my place. thought of to do the rest of the task emailed by one of the team member just now, but thinking of buat ape rajin sgt nak wat keje mase lunch, so, continued to type this. sungguh cepat masa berlalu. skarang ni dah half May dah. frm 1 may until now, mcm byk sgt bende yang happened and some of it made me confused until now. though the solution is simple, but i dont dare to do it. too afraid if i'm not as ready as i think i am.

1st May, watched spiderman 3 with abg apis, one & his girlfriend at IMAX theater. the screen was damn big sampaikan berpusing2 kepala nak tgk the whole screen. since i was not feeling well, rase terganggu & mengganggu bile terbatuk dlm cinema tu. but the movie was nice. after late lunch at kenny rogers & pusing2 dlm time square tu, abg apis sent me to the parking where i parked my car and we parted. and me went home with a big question in my mind - confused.

3rd May, deareast kak susan passed away. i was so shocked bile dpt tahu berita tu from kak dona's blog. terus terbayang her face, her smiles and her soft voice. last i met her was early this year when she was going to JB. her last msg in my tagboard pun tak hilang lagi --> "susanjafri >> hiyah sista! Hang in there k. It's normal tht we tend to compare the new environment to the old one but if we keep on doing that, then we will not move on sampai bila bila kan. so Hang in there sista! " and our endless conversation in YM was like 2 weeks before the accident. and of course, her YM id, phone number and email add will remain the way they are. am not going to delete it forever. Al-Fatihah utk kak sue. though i miss her so much, but i'm sure she's happy with her family now. Insya Allah.

11 May, SMS frm Izan made me shocked, again. Pakcik passed away that morning. At first i didnt feel anything. But after a while, then i realized, that was my uncle who passed away. terus rasa sebak after that.  But again, he was old and tak sihat sangat and the fact that dia meninggal hari jumaat agak melegakan. ayah & mak balik ke kg leaving us adik beradik kat rumah. anyway, although that day was quite sedih in the morning, i was so happy after that sbb lunch ngan kak tuty and we had a talk for good 2 hours in coffee bean. afternoon, thought of to go dinner with abg apis but ada miscommunication so tak jadi. tgkla this friday macamana. told him i wanna go dinner at Yanki3sHuT nanti.

12 May, went dating with dearest Kamy. watched Next & had lunch at SP. punyala lama tak gi sana sampai terpusing2 mencari parking. it was nice seeing her again after like almost half a year tak jumpa. invited Lin to join us also, but she was bz with her work and thus, berdatingla kami berdua jek frm 11 a.m - 4 pm.

hmm.. a friend of mine ajak masuk her networking business. went to see the talk last wednesday. saje je sebenarnya sbb kakak tu asyik mengajak. tired & hungry, dengarla her fren bagi explanation abt the business. sama jek konsep dia cam the other networking business but this time around, they wanted me to invest for the higher rank. and for that i have to fork out 12 K! pergh!!  it's pretty much personal preference lah..but 12K..never..if you want to invest... the most important rule is.. ONLY invest money you willing to LOOSE...your ok with loosing 12K.. then.. ok lah...  dearie iko's point of view when i asked his opinion abt this. and as always, the questions he asked macam peluru. lepas satu, satu..   invest 12K for what?? any justification?? other than finding more ppl to join.. what else do you do???  for 12K investment i expect free not disc!..when i told him i'll be getting some discount if i wanna purchase the product. well, of course my answer is NO. tak kose la nak buat loan for all these (yes! they'll arrange the personal loan for the new member who is interested). err.. sesapa yang nak invest 12K and join under me? i just need 3 ppl.. hehehe

oklah.. there goes 14 days in my life sepanjang May. the big question still lingers in my mind.. the heartache still there each time I chatted with him in YM.. hmm.. spices for my life.. oh, btw.. to those friends who know salwa (kak wawa), she'll undergo a neuro operation on 24 May - Unit Neurologi, HKL. Let's pray for her. Insya Allah everything will be ok.

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!  

now is almost 6.30 p.m.. semua orang dah balik kecuali One and the other kakak. they have 5 p.m meeting with boss.. it's a culture here, having meeting after office hour.. sungguh tak best! anyway, below are the updates for a week in my life for ur perusal (cheh!! macam la ade orang nak bace..)

Friday, 20 April 07 - 6 a.m. Leymah called to inform she is on the way to my house. Dlm kemalasan & ngantuk yang amat, paksa diri utk bangun sbb mengenangkan her journey frm ampang to my house tak lama sbb tak jem. right after subuh, ann called.. sesat katanye.. after giving her the instruction, leymah arrived. asked her to just come in & naik bilik terus. she lepak on my bed while me bersiap. at 7 a.m, ann arrived. after peluk & cium mak, ayah drove us all to LCCT. kat airport, after checked in, melilau cari kak wa.. called her and she sound agak bad mood sbb dia dah sampai awal tapi kenkawan dia ni tak sampai lagi.. ala kak wa.. at least, kiteorang takdelah lambat sangat sampai takleh nak check in like what u did last year.. hehe.. pukul 10.30 baru berlepas frm LCCT. delayed sbb ade terlebih penumpang. sabar jelah.. no wonder la the stewardess keep on repeating the destination of the flight. ada orang yang terlepas masuk kapal terbang rupanya. 2 hours later, arrived at soekarno hatta airport, jakarta. kat sana, rase macam lost sangat. we sat on the bench waiting for kak wa's friend to fetch us after friday prayer. after so long, idho arrived and brought us all to his house in Jakarta timur. cijantung, to be exact. the traffic and the drivers in jakarta made me thankful living in KL. if u think traffic kat KL is bad, there is worst. takut! an hour journey to jakarta timur dah jadi 2 jam sbb jem sepanjang jalan. sampai kat rumah idho, he introduced us to his families. we had our late lunch kat warung bakso yang glemer just beside his house. the bakso is so sedap. no wonder it is the most popular retaurant kat sana. after lunch, rehat & had a chat with idho's family. his brother, ben, asked us a lot of questions. he just graduated in accounting and waiting for offers frm the banks. lepas maghrib, ben brought us around jakarta. went to Monas, but nothing much can be done & seen sbb tempat tu dah tutup. we ended up strolling around before balik rumah. at first, we thought of to sleepover at the airport since our nx flight to balik papan is at 6 a.m. but idho's mom insisted to stay over their house. a very nice ppl they are. really made us like a special guest walaupun tak pernah kenal pun before this. kak wa pun kenal idho virtually thru YM.

Saturday, 21 April 07 - 2.30 a.m, terbangun sbb dgr orang ketuk pintu. awalnye idho kejutkan. at 4 a.m, bertolak ke airport. one thing i dont like abt their airport, they share their surau. as a result, yours truly yang blur ni, telah menghalau a guy frm entering the surau sbb ingatkan the surau is for ladies only and berjaya memalukan diri sendiri bila perasan yang surau kat airport mmg utk both ladies & gentleman. isk..isk.. and worst, that guy pun nak gi BPN and he sat just in front of me in the waiting room.  anyways, after delayed abt 45 mins (Air Asia & delays..) and 2  hours flight to BPN, we arrived at Sepinggan Airport, BPN. Irma dah menunggu with dearie aliff & aliyah on tow. 10 mins later, arrived at her mansion. after letak bebarang dlm her huge guest room, terus serbu meja makan sbb lapar sangat. tapi upon seeing cili padi yang dihidangkan, semua orang cam wondering sampaila irma showed us how to eat the tauhu isi. first, bite the tauhu isi, and then bite the cili padi..  sedap!! serius sedap! then, rush to spa & massage house. after choosing the package, we pampered ourselves with the services for good 3 hours. heheh.. pity azlan kene tunggu kat ofis sbb kenkawan wife dia nih lama sangat kat spa. since me & leymah siap dulu, we followed irma fetched azlan and got to see the other side of BPN. then, patah balik ke spa house tu utk fetch kak wa & ann. after that, they brought us to irma's hideout place kat a restaurant on the top of the hill. very calm & nice place. mmg best utk bersembunyi. we had our afternoon tea with everyone laughing to each other and took picture & pictures & pictures - as usual, azlan la jadi photographer kalau kenkawan wife dia ni ada. after maghrib, went out again for dinner. the dinner, lots of kepiting & kepiting & kepiting! puas makan kepiting. this is the first time we had the crabs yg sungguh besar. azlan ordered 3 portion of crabs which 1 portion tu bleh makan 4 orang. and we had 3 portion for 6 ppl.. just imagine. after had enuff of kepiting we went around bpn. ingatkan nak beli something but nothing interesting. it was late when we arrived home. had bicara hati dgn ann on the bed with my eyes barely open. once kak wa masuk jek bilik, grabbed the opportunity to turn around and sleep.. sorryla ann, ngantuk yang amat dah mase tu.. in fact i dont really remember what she was telling pun sebenarnya. hehee..

Sunday, 22 April 07 - Irma woke us up at 7 a.m. as usual, pity them both had to wait us to get ready for breakfast. after finished having their delicious english breakfast and taking pictures & pictures & more pictures, off to airport utk balik ke jakarta. at jakarta, idho & ben brought us to tanah abang. a big shopping complex with variety of things with cheap prices. rambang mata tengok bebarang kat sana. somehow, since it was sunday, the shops there closed at 4 p.m. as the result, i just bought baju utk the nieces & handbag & purse for mak. tak sempat nak beli souvenirs and in fact, i didnt buy anything for myself pun. terkilan sungguh.our flight back to KL was at 9.40 p.m. had A&W at the airport. bought kek lapis & cokelat semata-mata nak habiskan rupiah. it was almost midnite we reached LCCT and after a while, ayah came to bring his girl back home. leymah balik terus after that while ann stayed at my house.

Moday, 23 April 07 - bangun dah lewat and ann was late for work. nasib baik ofis dia just 15 mins away frm my house. tapi kelam kabut jugak la makcik tu sbb tak tahu jalan. drew a map for her and after had a cup of tea, she drove off. went to bank with mak & ayah to settle things and after that went to mid valley with ijas. watched the reaping. takdelah takut sangat citer tu.. nothing much i did that nite. sleepy & tired, prepared myself for work & dozed off.

Tuesday, 24 April 07 - work, work, work..

Wednesday, 25 April 07 - work, work, work. went to pizza hut after maghrib for the blogsahabat gathering sambil celebrate kak wtl's belated birthday. had good laugh with them. stories & photos can be found here --> cekya's. we were there until pizza hut dah almost sunyi and the waitress dah handed us the bill. it was 10.30 p.m and diaorang pun nak tutup dah. we walked out frm the restaurant, still laughing & chatting until we parted with hugs & kisses. while they walked to lrt station & carpark, i went up quite in hurry as abg apis is waiting outside the building already. as i guessed, he looked quite tensed - waiting for me & lapar & penat. isk.. rase sungguh bersalah sebenarnya and as the result, i was quiet sampaila he calmed down. accompanied him dinner somewhere near celcom building - they claimed it as the best roti canai restaurant. 12.45 a.m, he drove me to the carpark, 1.30 a.m reached home, feeling very tired, sleepy, very kenyang but satisfied. :) it was nice spending time with the great ppl & the loved ones.

Thursday, 26 April 07 - went to PD for lunch at rumah bakal abang ipar. and happy birthday sarah!! had a very delicious lunch with everyone. after zohor, went to the beach with the kids while ijas took the time to have some quiet time with her fiance. stayed there for half a day. at 6 p.m, bertolak balik. arrived home at 7 p.m and at 8 p.m, went out with adik and wan. had dinner at sate samuri. on the way home, wan tried to drive like me, ala-ala fast & furious but somehow, i considered him failed sebab masuk lubang while turning kat selekoh and pecahkan the tyre. as the result, tersadai la kami bertiga kat tepi jalan waiting for amin to come and rescue us.

Today, 27 April 07 - work, work, work.. finished my guideline document & sent to AA for proof read. nice! setel 1 keje. esk cuti & gotta rest cukup2..

hmmm... that's all my report. err.. cikgu cekmi, sori la ye kalau ade tatabahasa or ejaan yang salah dlm karangan saya ni.. :D

for u, dear sis.. got ur msg. just call me whenever u r ready. i'm not going to bother u at all for now. take ur time.

to all beautiful ppl, have a nice weekend!!

....but my feelings for you are forever..

As what leymah wrote in her blog, so much to say, so little time to write.. tapi sbb ade banyak bende nak citer, so, dlm kesempatan takde orang ni, azell mengelat tulis blog (walaupun guidelines document tak siap lagi.. huhuuu)

first of all.. i have a new nephew! Adam Ridzwan, welcome to the world! was born on 15 April 2007, 3.7 kg.. he is one cute little baby with a very round head.. comel!! Aminur Rashid has another brother to take care of besides Aisyah Raihanah, Anis Ridhwani & Arief Rifa'at Rahmat. errr.. i hope his name - Adam Ridzwan, is correct because i think as at now, his parents still unsure what name to give to him as they were expecting a girl with the name of Alya Ratasha.. tetiba yang arrived nye a boy.. tu yang pening parents dia nak letak name.. and Insya Allah, another nephew/niece will be "arrived" soon in october.. a sister/brother to Amyra Fariza.. hmm.. dah nak dpt adik dah budak Mia tu..

last friday, went to pc fair at KL convention center. takdelah ape sangat nak tgk kat sana except to buy a mouse and memenuhi ajakan sorang adik kat ofis ni. this adik who known as One, was a fresh grad frm US. tapi, kalau dia tak ckp dia grad kat sana, no one will know abt it. he is the very sempoi guy, who loves nasi lemak & sambal and nak pegi tgk CT nurhaliza nyer concert kat istana budaya. he never, never, never speaks english ngan kiteorang, in fact, once he questioned me, "apsal orang kat sini speaking sesama sendiri?".. and i gave him a "what??" look.. but, once dia speaking, pergh!!! best giler! his US slang mmg mencairkan hati orang yang mendengar.. heheh.. very natural and takdelah dengar cam mengada2 & dibuat2 like certain other ppl.. each time he speaks with the users on the phone, i'll pay attention to the conversation (walaupun tak paham sbb dia tgh attend user's issue).. and because of the slang, the guys here selalu usik dia and call him the new yorkers - yelah, he is the youngest among us all so, kene buli tu biasalaa..

phew!! panas.. baru balik lunch ngan che din and his frens.. nasib baik pakai selipar jek.. kalau tak, sure sakit kaki jalan jauh gi makan tadi. this is my first time lunch with che din sepanjang almost 2 months here. tu pun i think sebab iko tanya dia that day y we never have lunch together.  thought of che din nak tunggu iko dtg baru nak gi lunch with me, tapi ntah nape tetiba he called and ajak makan. but still laa.. iko dtg nanti i hv to banjer both of them.. hmmm.. ape-ape ajelah...

well, actually tak habis lagi citer abt One. this boy, he has a gf in US yang akan balik bulan 5 nanti. and in the same time he has another gf here. mase pegi pc fair that day, his gf tagged along. but One, he was so excited abt the whole latest technology thingie and kept on turning to me and explained this and that. so, the gf, maybe felt a lil bit abandoned, quickly held his hand. ok, fine with me.. but then, One still talking to me and the gf (maybe pissed off dah mase tu sbb kene ignored), put her hand around his waist. One responded and hugged her shoulder but continued explaining abt the new PCs, new processors, new notebooks, etc..etc.. to me. by that time, i saw her face cam dah bosan.. and i felt sorry for her. so, slowly i walked away frm the couple and really hoping dlm hati for abg apis to come & rescue me frm the weird situation.  tak lama lepas tu, abg apis sampai and after introducing everyone, i quickly pulled him away, leaving the couple in peace. heheh..  baru la the girl's face "cerah" semula. tapinya, cerah tak sampai ke petang sbb after that One's gf frm US called. so, One, being a fair boifren, sebelah tangan pegang hp layan gf frm US and sebelah tangan lagi holding gf's hand here. and me, geleng kepala & tergelak dlm hati.. pity both girls.. but i pity his US gf more.. yelah..just imagine, after 4 years together, tetiba bile bf balik mesia tak sampai 2 bulan, dah ade gf baru kat sini sedangkan bulan 5 nanti she'll be back for good. sakitnye hati... but, what to do.. anyways, after beli mouse & pusing2 pc fair tu, we separated. after solat, had dinner at burger king, then pegi tgk kasut abg apis and pusing klcc - abg apis had the idea to watch a movie but i was not in the mood (sorry, dear..), so he sent me back to carpark. went home and spent time with everyone watching ice age kat TV.

weekend, takde ape yang menarik. ijas & adik left me at home for the whole saturday and made me really mad  & upset with them. the result, gave them a cold war - silent treatment. ij, saya mmg marah giler kat awak hari tu tau!! ahad,  adam ridzwan is born. monday, tuesday & today, work..work..work...however, me & the girls r so teruja for jakarta/BPN vacation this weekend. can't wait!! irma has booked spa & massage and she have to feed me with lotsa crabs (sbb jd carrier bawak sup bunjut dia tuh.. heheheh).. err.. tapi barang tak pack lagi, duit tak tukar lagi... hmm.. alahai..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

the song is playing in my mind right now, over & over again. sungguh teruja LP dah ade new album. gotta get it one soon. lama dah tak layan LP. in fact, kat dlm kete cuma ade LB, saliva & of course metallica. tu pun tak pasang pun.. sbb selalunya layan hitz.fm or fly.fm.. that day, first time i heard this LP single aired on Fly, terus teringat kenangan zaman silam yang everything seemed so perfect and someone who used to be so close to me. she used to be the bestest friend who knows all my deepest secret. she was the one who gave me the LP concert tix on my birthday. and we both went to the concert, had so much fun and sprained our legs for jumping like crazy that nite. that was the time.. the time where i was her shoulder to cry on..  the one who always listen to all her problems.. the one who cares and always try to do anything to help her.. but now, she doesnt need me and her other friends for 11 years anymore. as always, her life is hers to live her own way. although i dont know how & where is she now, but i'm sure she is alive & kicking (and reading this blog - oh yes! i can see u online in the cyberspace, my dear) and i just hope she's happy with her new 'family' members. anyways, this song is for her - something for her to ask herself.

What I've done

In this farewell,
there's no blood,
there's no alibi.
Cause I've drawn regret,
from the truth,
of a thousand lies.
So let mercy come,
and wash away...

What I've done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out
What I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of
What I've done.

Put to rest,
what you thought of me.
Well I clean this slate,
with the hands of uncertainty
So let mercy come,
and wash away...

What I've done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out
What I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of
What I've done.

For what I've done,
I start again.
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving...

What I've done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out
What I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of
What I've done.

What I've done,
Forgiving what I've done

**agak2nye bila dearie abg apis nak bagi lagu ni yek??

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

monday.. genap sebulan i'm here. life as usual.. getting better but more confusing.. makin banyak pegi meeting, makin confuse dibuatnya. like today, had meeting with VP discussing abt issues on how to move on with the project, and ptg, team meeting brainstorming the solutions that need to give to VP in order him to present to Pe**o*** management. being "new", i didnt really understand my teammates frustations, though i know they have all the rights to be frustrated. yelah, what we did just know is supposed to be done by the PM, not us.. but seeing how things went on just now, i'm sure i'll be frustrated like my other teammates one day.. huhuh.. have to be prepared for that. i know how they feel.. being in the neverending project is really sickening. been there, done that! it just now i'm in the different place, different situation. working with AA really makes me envy to the max with his capabilities. he is one of the person who likes to talk. though he is still young (well, he is younger than me and whoever younger than me can be considered as "young") but he talks confidentally. suke tgk cara dia.. need to learn frm him ni.. tapi takleh nak ckp ape laa.. he came frm sales background.. he is not an IT grad.. and being a consultant suits him best. ape-ape pun, now SH is gone for 3 months holidays, leaving me & AA to work on the project. LF is coming back nx week and hopefully she is as kind & as fun as both AA & SH. terasa quiet bile SH takde.. so far, i think i'm comfortable with her the most. how i wish LF pun macam tu.

just now, went lunch at Ave K foodcourt with Nad. stopped at bread story for a while sbb captivated dgn bau roti. mase tgh pilih roti, someone I knew from school stood beside me. her face still tak berubah. still cantik macam kat sekolah dulu. i know she works at pe**o***. in fact she is one of my user now but i have no heart or intention to tegur dia walaupun we were at the same school and in the same class almost every year from std 1 sampai form 3.. dont know why.. maybe nx time.

oklah, nak balik dah.. really hope things will be better after this. i do have strong faith on that. dear As, keep on holding the sky, never let it go.. be strong, stay strong.

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

TGIF!! lately, almost every day i woke up dgn malasnye sbb sejuk yang amat .. err, tapi kalau org kat rusia tu sure rase panas sbb dah biasa ngan winter -30.. kan bro? heheh.. ape-apehal pun, since today is friday, dalam keterpaksaan kene bangun jugak sambil pujuk hati esok i can continue my beauty sleep after subuh instead of having to rush and drive 1 hour to work... best!!

nothing much happen at the office. work as usual.. still clueless with the structure but in term of project i'm in now, it's getting clearer. but as usual, project is project - jarang yang ade project that is so smooth and everything is perfect. like this one, frm 3 months project dah jadi setahun.. and right now, no one is sure whether the project will continue or not. huhuhu... not my call though.. the person i'll be replacing is going next week.. and my partner keep on reminding me "i need u to get onboard quickly"... hmmmh... speaking of getting onboard, ape yang dia nak pun i dont know.. i dont see him doing anything for the project either... kalau setakat gi meeting and look pretty, i can do that too.. hmm... ape-ape jelah.. as at now, since semua org bz, i have to look bz as well.. hehhe.. bz updating this blog of mine..

just now went to MASA to collect my EA form. felt like i'm alive again when stepping in the building. with the guards smiling & greeting me like usual and the familiar faces stopped by, asking how's things and bile naik atas, x-boss hugged me tightly - rase cam nak nangis lak.. too bad i went there on friday as VP dah kuar for prayer..  kalau tak, ade byk bende nak citer kat dia.. as the result, x-boss la yang mendengar all my whines.. had lunch with her and other friends. after collecting the ea form, l looked around the places.. still can see vividly in my mind all the events happened where i fought with my vendors, had a quiet talk & bicara hati with other half, saw myself smiling to Mr. J while trying very hard to hold my anger... huhu.. speaking of mr. J, just now, had a chance to meet him.. seeing this tall, dark & handsome guy made me wonder how i can be so tough dealing with him b4.. and now, i must remain tough in dealing with ppl here... the vendors, the project team & also, the teammates....  

went to payroll after that, asking when my half month salary frm MASA will be credited since my first salary here masuk lambat for the first month.. oleh kerana terlampau happy mendengar the news plus the good news frm kak nad, i forgot to to take my handphone (i put it on the payroll counter sbb nak hug kak nad and terus tinggal camtu jek).. sampai ofis baru mencari. called my number and the nice payroll girl answered and as usual, the good fren of mine kat sana is willing to send the phone to KLCC.. lega...

still in the nicest mood now.. sebab dah nak balik but have to wait for sham to come and collect the phone.. anyways, have a great weekend beautiful ppl.. and dear brother yang nun jauh kat sana.. gud luck for ur surgery exam! 

Today, genap 2 weeks I said goodbye to MASA. And last Thursday, genap seminggu I said hello to iPioneer. Life changes dramatically.. from last time i woke up every morning paling awal pun kul 6.30 pagi, now, kul 6.30 tu kalau tak siap lagi dah can be considered as lewat.  Last time, I parked my comot just beside the office building and got miserable when the carpark tix naik 15 sen… but now, I have to pay RM 3 for the parking and have to walk like 15 mins to office – and cross the busy road in the middle of KL.. if last time, I walked into the building and be greeted with all familiar faces, now, nak senyum pun tak berani.. kalau dulu, I had to take only 1 lift to go any levels in the building, tapi sekarang, kalau ade meeting kul 10 pagi, I have to prepare like 10 – 15 minutes spare time utk sesat naik lif.. huhuhuu.. speaking of working in the one of the highest building in the world… penat!!! All these are the price for me to pay for leaving MASA. If only my x-VP knows, mesti kene gelak ngan dia…”I’d told ya, I’d warned ya!” … ni tak masuk pasal keje lagi… “That was the reason why I left and joined MASA.. and now, u r telling me u r going there?” … Mr. VP once asked me that question during several “bicara hati” sessions with him last time… but being the best VP ever, his wordings in the email he replied really made me feel OK…”I will be there when you need me, just call.” – and yes, ade banyak bende nak ngadu kat dia nih.. not forgetting, some of the users for the project I’m in now were his x-staff. Heheh.. cam best jek bile diaorang tanya where I was previously and when I mentioned MASA, they immediately asked abt Mr. VP. That was one of the ways for me to start the conversation with the users during user requirements workshop in Nikko last week. Hmmm… though I really missed all the times at MASA, but still.. I have to move on..

Speaking of moving on, my current teammates now are nice & friendly. Tapi walaumacamana sekalipun bestnye kenkawan kat sini, when I asked all x-MASA who work here, they’ll give the same answer – working in MASA is still the best. Tapi tulaa.. if only MASA tahu camana nak retain their staff, I’ll be the loyalest employee! Huhuhuu… well, that’s life anyway… being a new person, I have to rebuild everything from scratch… I have to understand not only the company structure, but the client’s org chart also… being in the project, I have to know the business processes – and the processes are damn complicated!! Since I have to replace the business analyst who will be transferred to another project, I’m now struggling to catch up with her pace. It is challenging since she has been in the project since beginning and knows inside out.. ni tak masuk lagi nak kene deal ngan users & vendor yang dah get very comfortable with her.. luckily she is really nice, friendly & selamba… macam seriau jek bile fikirkan boleh ke nak replace her ni?? Am I capable enough? Adeh laaaaaa….

Anyway, enuff abt work… last Saturday, 3 March, dengan rasminya Ijas jadi someone else’s fiancé.. the majlis was just a simple one and ran smoothly. The wedding will be somewhere in November. Can’t wait !! tapi tulaa.. walaupun dia tak kawin lagi, dah terasa cam kehilangan dia.. kalau dulu, I’ll be in her room almost every nite, chatting.. but now, selalu kene halau ngan dia sbb my future abg ipar tu tepon.. sabar jelah.. but stil, so happy for her.

Yesterday, went to irma’s place – in KL, not BPN. It was great as usual lepaking and hanging around the girls and the kids. Tak sabar nak visit dia kat BPN plak.. working here made me want to take a break.. huhu.. tak sampai 2 minggu keje dah ingat nak bercuti.. ape-ape ajelah azell nih!! Tapi nasib baik kat sini even probation period pun bleh cuti. And I’ve told the team leader that I’m taking leave next month.

It is quite hectic working here and I had to type this entry at home and paste it in my blog.. dah tak macam dulu where I can type an entry in my blog in the middle of the working day.. banyak sangat email to reply ni. Bro adam, if u r reading this, sorry for not replying ur mails.. I do read but I really have to find time to reply. Pls keep me updated with ur situation there..

am listening to this song - saturate, sang by breaking benjamin. a vey nice song and i dedicated the song to dearie iko. walaupun the lyrics takde kene mengena with anything, but i really want him to 'stay alive forever' - despite of whatever reasons that he told but refused to explain and just wanted me to let it be. and i am letting it be.. malas nak layan all the hurt & heartache..

another 3 days to go.. 5 days termasuk sabtu & ahad. today, since morning membuat housekeeping dlm pc nih.. all the 6 years personal files have to be backed up.. after filtering the files & documents, i realized, most of it were junks that actually can be deleted years ago. i think, this is not the first time i changed PC since 6 years ago, but those files are still there. speaking of sayang nak buang. after finished burning everything in the cds, nak kene kemas inbox pulak. dlm inbox pun ade banyak junks sebenarnya. last week, dah bawak half of my personal things home. bought 2 boxes to put all that. hopefully muat. macam banyak lagi yang kene bawak balik nih..

last friday, went to watch ghost rider with abg apis. thought of to watch at klcc but the ticket online booking system was suck. so, went to mid valley instead. after movie, went dinner merangkap supper at restoran murni.. dont ask me where because i was sleeping almost all the way pegi & balik. it was midnite anyway. YB joined us there together with our schoolmate, Megat. after finished school & AIM, i only saw Megat in theater and some advertisment in TV. he is good in acting, i can say. almost 1 a.m, the guys asked if my parents are waiting for me. confidently i said, nope.. they are not waiting. and right after that, my phone rang. it was mak, shrieked out asking where i was. huhuhuuu.. padan muke.. well, it was my fault though.. i supposed to call them if i were to go home after 11 p.m.. since i was sleepy & scared after watching the citer hantu (huhuu.. takdelah takut sangat sebenarnya.. saje jek), the guys - being the best boyfriends ever, insisted to send me home. after parked his precious Impreza at his office, YB drove my car back  home, while me sleeping almost all the way in abg apis' car on his new comfortable seat, listening to the songs we both love. arrived home at 2.30 a.m and mak was there welcoming me right in front of the door. tired & sleepy, terus tertido after freshen up.

chinese new year holidays. nothing much i did. went to kak ida's house with kak  tuty on sunday afternoon. it was nice seeing them again. the best sisters i ever had when they were still in MASA. we wished Joey can join us, but she is quite quiet right now. with me going out from MASA, meaning that all 4 ladies Lew used to have are gone. but, he will remain in our mind & heart forever, for being the best, thoughtful, kind, perfectionist & fussy boss in the world.. on monday, went to PD with ijas & her frens. tapi tak mandi laut pun. while they went down main air, i stayed onshore. jaga barang sebenarnya. the whether was perfect. stayed there until 1.30 p.m... night, went dinner at alamanda with ijas & wan.... apart from that, just stayed at home & merewang sekitar bangi & mines. quite bored but still.. holidays are still great!

back to work today. best betul kalau the traffic macam skarang ni everyday. tenang jek hati, perasaan & fikiran mase driving pegi keje. x-boss buat farewell makan2 for me & azri. the same delicious ayam golek she treated us that day to celebrate the successfulness of my project rollout. hmm.. sure rindu masa ni nanti. wonder how will my new boss would be? teruja & scared too.. mixed feelings. but i hope everything will go well. Insya Allah.  

Found this in one of my junk documents. I think the wordings are nice, maybe that was y i did not delete the document before.

Live to learn to love to laugh
to give to grow to get to grasp,
to sing to sigh to sow to see,
to live to learn to love to be.

can I stay alive forever?

Have a nice day beautiful ppl!

a "kraftangan" by azell's dear brother. the trick is that if u turn the picture upside down, it will still read 'azell'.  thanks adam. really appreciate this.

Have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

This quiz i got from kak WTL and decided to try it too..

	Tenderheart Bear You are thinker, organizer, peacekeeper, and leader all in one. You have a power to command attention and people listen to you. However, you are often so concerned about not hurting others' feelings that you don't tell them what they need to hear and this gets you both into trouble. But you always have loyal friends to help you out.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

hmm.. the result macam betul, tapi macam tak jugak.. ape-ape ajelah..

pagi ni sampai ofis at 9 a.m walaupun kuar rumah at 7.. penat 2 hours in the car, which moved slower than a tortoise. sampai ofis,  quickly warned everyone not to ask anything. pening kepala & sakit kaki kawal clutch. serik nak guna that route after this, biarpun terowong smart tu dah bukak, still, i'm going to use MRR2..

going home now. have a great weekend, beautiful ppl!