Monday, 6 April 09 - rasenye cam lama tak update this blog of mine ni. bukan sbb takde citer.. citer banyak, tapi sebab banyak citer tu yg jadi malas nak update. kan best kalau bleh ckp jek and the blog is updated.. huhu.. see..i can be veeeery the malas person if i want to..

anyways, mid of march that day went to YB's wedding. hajat di hatinye nak jadi tetamu biasa jek and to snap pictures of my dear fiance jadi pengapit kat atas pelamin. somehow, awal2 lagi i was wondering where is the pengapit for the bride, so, instead of biarkan the pengantin sensorang tetengah panas, i took the payung & payungkan dia while my dear fiance dh payungkan the groom. and when the real pengapit nak menjalankan tugas, the bride said no and wanted me to stick beside her.. which at first i was like.. errr.. really?? with me cladded in orange baju kurung while my dear fiance & the pengantins pakai baju yg sedondon.. seriously.. really? but somehow, i felt honoured. yelah kan.. it was her big day where the pictures and the memories of the event will be kept & cherished forever.. and i was there. for me, i want someone close to me to be my bridesmaid.. and i'll choose my closest, trusted friend - which i dont have any now. takpelah.. if by making me happy on my wedding day nanti will make them feel sad.. i'll settle with someone else.. errr.. sape nak jadi pengapit urs truly ni nanti eh?

Friday, 27/03 - my dear fiance got his house key. so, start la membeli bebarang utk bersihkan rumah and all. and for the whole weekend we spent time scrubbing the house.. penat. tapi acik azell ni takdela buat ape sangat sebenarnye.. more to jadi mandur jek.. after that helped him to move things from his current house to the new house almost every day for the whole week. went home midnite every nite. rase cam zombie pun ade. but pity my dear fiance la sbb kene travel back to klang every day. takpe dear, after this ur travelling time from office to ur house is only 5 minutes away jek.. no toll & save so much fuel.. :D

Friday, 3/04 - didnt go to work that day. sebab? hmm.. malas? aci tak alasan tu? hahah.. went to alamanda to but things to cook for lunch. itu ini begitu begini, siapla sup ikan merah & sambal sotong. brought the foods to hawami since ayah & mak were there with baby AH. lepak kat sana for a while before rushed to the banks & cari air cendol mak.. at 6 p.m, baru balik rumah & buat ape yg patut. malam, lepak with ijas in her room bercerita itu ini sampai la terperasan yg i didnt pack anything yet utk balik JB mlm tu. rushed packing things, and kemas bilik semua while waiting for my dear fiance to fetch me at home. it was almost midnite he arrived and we started our journey to JB immediately.

Saturday, 4/04 - arrived at my aunt's house at 3 a.m. terus tak sedar ape after freshen up. pagi tu goreng mee for breakfast and berborak with everyone before rase sungguh tak tahan mengantuk and took a short nap sampai kul 11.30 pagi. after shower and all, help my aunt prepared the gelas2 and some foods sbb ade rombongan pengantin perempuan from her neighbour's kenduri yg nak dtg menumpang. around 1 p.m, my dear fiance arrived and after lunch, bertolak ke pontian to settle our things. hmm.. it was raining in pontian and it was a really mix-feeling, bittersweet trip for me. my dear fiance gave me a surprise which i love it. i dont remember seeing him in his style now sbb when i first know him closely, he is in different fashion. tapi, buat la macam2 mane sekalipun, tukar la gaya ape2 sekalipun, he is still the same person i love. after that ingatkan nak gi makan my faveret yong tauhu that nite.. but his car brokedown, and we ended up having dinner at his house & i got the chance to taste abah's dish for the first time. ikan pari asam pedas. not bad at all. went back to JB with abah's car and dozed off right after i lay my head on the pillow..

sunday, 5/04 - pepagi as usual, sediakan breakfast. and then lepak kejap before sambung balik masak for lunch. after lunch, ingatkan nak gi visit a cousin yg baru deliver her 5th baby boy, but got the sms frm dear fiance saying that he's on the way already. so, tak jadi pegi visit but went to buy keropok lekor instead. around 2 p.m dear fiance arrived and after salam2 with everyone we started our journey back to KL. sepanjang perjalanan hujan tapi tidak mematahkan semangat kami utk berenti kat parit raja to borong kerepek2 yg banyak & murah & putu bambu. huhuu.. at first i just saw "putu bambu" singange, but my dear fiance added "special". because of that, beli la 5 bungkus putu bambu special tu which in 1 pack ade 6 batang. banyak tu.. tapi mmg special, sebab mmg sedap.. :D tak sesia beli banyak. walaupun kete my dear fiance tu takde ekon for the whole journey, tapi since it was raining all the way, still comfortable. nothing much happen on the way back. kete banyak, jalan licin so perjalanan agak slow. but everythig was fine for me because nothing more meaningful than spending time alone with each other. nice! arrived home almost 10 p.m and kelam kabut sediakan late dinner for everyone. my dear fiance bertolak balik klang after stayed for a cup of coffee with my family. after that spent some time with mak & adik before naik atas & prepare myself utk gi keje esok.

monday, 6/04 - work? hahah.. macam tak buat ape2 jek hari ni kat ofis.. anyways.. life is back to routine... phew! another 1 month ++ to go... i shud cherish all the moments now.. before the title "single" is not valid anymore..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!   

'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you...

*ngantuk!*

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!

1 march 2009. genap 2 tahun urs truly kat iPioneer ni. 2 great years.. hmmm.. great ke? boleh tahan la.. biasa la ade ups & downs sesikit tu.. but i think i'll be long here.. setakat ni takde lagi push factor i get from the company. with economy yg tak memberangsangkan ni, simpan jelah dulu resume tu.. but really hope my journey in iPioneer will be good for a long, long time. and really hope rezeki kat sini tak terputus walaupun banyak mana sekalipun challenges yg datang. Insya Allah.

anyways, life is good. walaupun melayang 400 bucks semalam sbb cermin kete pecah mase tgh drive..but still.. takleh nak buat ape la kan.. things happen.. err.. camana cermin kete bleh pecah tu? heehe.. believe or not, i was hit by seekor ayam yg terbang.. i was driving that morning.. and then out of nowhere ade la sekor ayam ni flew right in front of me, and menuju ke arah my car yg tgh bergerak tu.. mase tu cuma sempat pk "eh.. ayam!".. after that terus kene langgar and pecah la cermin depan tu.. adehlaaa... panik gak memula sbb takut cermin tu lagi pecah.. pulled over kat tepi jalan & called ayah for rescue. sambil2 tu pk balik what happened and i ended up laughing.. yelah kan.. cermin pecah sebab ayam langgar.. takke lawak tu?  ayah came and we drove to the nearest workshop kat area UPM. lama jugak la kami menunggu kete tu siap.. alang2 pasang cermin my car, ayah servis kete ijas jugak.. about an hour late, ijas car siap and ayah went home leaving me waiting for my dear fiance. nothing much we did, just fixing things & had lunch merangkap dinner at KLCC. bought perfumes for our hantaran and then he sent me back to the workshop to pickup my car. later that nite, started doing the testing for the new enhanced system while my dear fiance is at his office, working on his database.. 

last tuesday - 24 Feb, had project closure dinner at jogoya restaurant, starhill. went there with david while AA dah pegi awal2 lagi. it was fun trying out the foods yg tak pernah makan before this. it is a japanese restaurant, so they have loads of seafood stuff.. best!! with the good company and good food = great moments. it was almost 10 p.m when we started to excuse ourselves. since we have no other plans after that, me & david took time to go round starhill before went down to my car. puas la jenjalan ngan mamat sorang nih.. dah la cute! hahaha.. drove home straight after sending him to the nearest monorel station. i was satisfied and full and happy all the way sampaila mase nak masuk selekoh ke putrajaya, my car skidded and the steering was locked and i lost control of the car.. berpusing2 kete and i was trying very hard to pull the steering to avoid the divider and such.. at last, the car stopped. melintang kat tetengah jalan.. nasib baik takde kete lain or else i'm sure it'll be either me or that car yg kene langgar mase tu. panicked and shaking, started the engine and drove slowly. called dear fiance and was engaged with him on the phone sampai la sampai rumah.  at home, hugged mak & after she hembus some doa, baru la rase tenang. kalau tak menggigil2 sebelum tu.. phew!! well, actually, i had this experience before. so, i kinda know what to expect when the steering was locked mase kat selekoh tu.. ape-apehal pun. Alhamdulillah.. i'm fine.

Thursday, 19 Feb - went to watch PGL 3 with dear fiance, kak lin & her auntie. great performance! really enjoyed it walaupun kene forked out duit dalam 300 for that.. huhuu.. habis duit simpanan dalam tabung ayam dibuatnye.. takpelah, dapat tengok PGL ngan Pak Lah & wife that nite. i was teruja with this PGL thingie since it was started years ago. always have this cita2 to watch it tapi tak berkesempatan. so, this time around when kak lin, my teater buddy tu ajak pegi, i was soo excited. sampai sanggup amik cuti kalau takde tiket available at nite. seronok! heheh

hmm.. ape lagi nak citer ye? the preparation for the D-day is on going. mak & ayah dh start booking for catering and stuff. anyways.. takde apelah nak citer abt that. guess i better stop now. ngantuk nih!

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!   

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..

heard this song last week while driving back home from work. terus teringat kat kenangan mase kat PPP. i used this song as the intro to my presentation.. pasal apentah. multitasking? something like that laa.. and dear raini was the.. hmm.. pelakon undangan?.. in the middle of my presentation, at back of the class, i saw someone smile cynically & shake his head.. disagreeing on my points, i guessed. and i was like.. "eeeeeggh!! mementang la dia pandai, dia bleh buat muke camtu mase aku tgh present!".. hate him so much mase tu.. but then, after so many years, now he is one of my closest friend who listens to all my whines, someone who knows almost everything abt me, one of my shoulder to cry on and mengadu domba about everything &  someone to kacau kat YM mase tengah bosan kat ofis.. heheh.. kinda weird actually, i despised 2 guys mase kat skolah dulu sbb these guys sungguh "sombong" dgn urs truly ni (ala-ala pandang sebelah mata pun tak.. apetah lagi nak bertegur sapa walaupun sekelas) but now, i just love both of them and thankful to have them in my life.

anyways.. ada banyak citer nak diceritakan.. good, bad, happy & sad stories.. semua ade. my mood pun cam roller coaster.. this week i can be very cheerful & happy, but then my mood distorted and made me sad & gloomy.  there is something happened last weekend that made me cried for the whole 2 days. because of that, i took MC today sbb tak kose nak gi ofis ngan mata bengkak2 camtu.. tapi stay kat rumah pun berkurung dlm bilik mengadap laptop sbb banyak sangat bende nak kene buat for tomorrow's meeting. really hope tomorrow's meeting goes well.. penat buat tender bebanyak to simulate in front of the bosses. sampai menggigil2 tahan penat & lapar (nak stop makan takbleh sbb nak kejar 12 midnite) plus mata dh sakit sbb staring at the screen (tambah ngan air mata yg akan terus mengalir each time teringat ape yg ditulis).. serius terseksa jiwa & raga. that person really berjaya menyakitkan hati urs truly ni with her writings. because of that also, i vented out something nasty to my dear fiance.. which i'm really, really sorry.. somehow, i know this is the dugaan for our smooth sailing relationship. not everyone is happy seeing us happy. it is proven now. but we r also fortunate enough to have our families from both side and friends who are very supportive and know who's right & who's wrong. still... i really hope that person will be happy with her life.. regardless of what she did or with whom she's with. i dont want her to be in misery because i dont see any reason for her to be one. i might break all the communication channel with her, avoid her or whatsoever, but i know for now, in my heart i dont hate her, instead i pity her. really.. i do want her to be happy... errr.. in a good way laa... bukannye happy atas kemusnahan my relationship.. isk.. Na'uzubillah..

hmm.. ape-apehal pun, azell dah penat. cukup la dua hari my mind sarat ngan bisikan2 syaitan yg sentiasa menghasut utk buat bende2 yg akan membuatkan semua orang kecewa.. though skarang ni still ade lagi the doubts yg stil linger in my mind, but i can handle it now. Insya Allah..

pray for us, my dear beautiful blogreaders, thanks & have a nice day!

20th january 2009 - almost the end of the first month in 2009. so far so good. work is good though we'll be getting a new boss (dont know la camana lps ni.. hopefully everything will be the same if not better). family matter - pak ngah is not so well now. so, mak & ayah is travelling to temerloh almost every week to visit him. pak ngah is mak's oldest brother.. dont know y everyone calls him pak ngah instead of pak long.. at the age of 80++, pak ngah mmg dh tak kuat utk lawan the penyakit. and mak, being his beloved sister, mmg amat diperlukan.. sbb dia takkan dengar ckp sesapa pun kecuali adik dia tu. so, kalau ade ape2 decision to make, his children will call mak, even the decision whether to go to hospital or not.. okla.. mak & ayah mmg suke gi temerloh pun. dah cucu kesayangan diaorang pun kat sana..

personal matters.. hmm.. kak TT dh balik from menunaikan Haji. Alhamdulillah. went to meet her last week. she looked vibrant as usual and glad she is the same kak TT i knew b4. we went lepaking at some mamak restaurant. no more our secret hiding place as she really wants to boycott isr@el. baguslaa.. tapi the pitfall of lepaking kat kedai mamak, rase cam nak terkeluar anak tekak mase berborak.. bising giler.. since both of us mmg tak pernah kering citer to tell each other, tahan jelah..but we really need to find our new hiding place la... hmm.. kat mane yek?

last weekend was really like roller coaster ride - emotionally. i was so disturbed, hurt, sad & crying on saturday due to something that really made me wonder, bak kate faiz@l tahir -- "siapa sebenarnya aku padamu?"... tapi biasala azell.. my "bengong" time sekejap jek.. cukup la sehari and cukupla sekali.. hmm... ntah la.. sometimes i dont know what i can & what i cannot do. i dont know what is my right being in this situation. all these while, i thought i am the "someone" already, but i was plainly wrong. there is still a thick line in between our lives that has sign on it - do not enter! hahah..

anyways, on sunday, my dear fiance came for lunch before we went to Uni10 to watch leymah's geng, the KLDC performing. dalam reramai performers, we love KLDC the best. really energetic & happening diaorang nih. after that, went to kak wil's house at puchong to visit her & her newborn baby boy. so glad seeing her all happy with her long awaited second child. went to kakak's house after almost 2 hours at kak wil's place, spending some times with the adorable boys. after maghrib, went for some dinner at uptown sebelum balik. dh sampai rumah baru teringat.. eh..dh 3 bulan kite engaged rupenye.. because of that, engaged with him on the phone before dozed off to wonderland.

monday, meeting at tower after lunch & went home early. nice!

today.. pagi tadi dah siap nak gi keje when ayah told me that my tyre need to be tampal sbb dh kempis. aiseh! terus sms AA telling him that i'll be working from home. while urs truly is busy siapkan the docs that need to be submitted by afternoon, ayah dah siap pegi kedai tayar & tampal tayar yg berlubang tu.. after lunch, sambung lagi buat keje sampai la kul 4. rushed to masjid putrajaya to claim our certs and off to alamanda with ijas & baby ameer after that. just now, after settle masak utk dinner semua, ingatkan nak tgk Gilmore girls at 8 TV.. tapi ntah nape remote tak functioning.. so, switched off the TV and joined mak & ayah makan. after siap kemas dapur & everything, terus naik & blog this.. esok keje...keje..keje..

phew!!!

have a nice day, beautiful ppl..

cekya darling.. everything will be ok.. have faith!

i'm so boring & sleepy right now. tak sabar nak tunggu kul 5 so i can get out from this building. kinda malas utk buat ape2 skarang ni.. well, maybe i know y i'm feeling like this.. but somehow, hmmm..... ntahla.. penasaran sungguh!

last saturday, successfully cooked homemade yong tauhu kat rumah for dinner. bangga sebab telah berjaya membuat sos dia.. walaupun ade comment frm my dear fiance & adik, but still.. eat-able la my first attempt yong tauhu tu.. well, what do u expect kan? first attempt.

adehlaa.. bosannye!!! dearie iko is bz so tak best la nak kacau dia.. i guess i shud just bear with the bosanness for another 1/2 an hour.. cepatlaa kul 5!!

thought of to do the document, tapi bile bukak je the word application, my eyes cam automatically nak close.. camana tuh?

anyways.. have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

as long as u love me...

yeah right!!!!

first of all, this entry takde kene mengena ngan sesapa, yg hidup atau yg mati.. this entry is solely abt me & what i am thinking right now..

so, what is love? how u define love? sayang? cinta? how it is supposed to feel being in love? knowing that someone we love, loves us back.. for me, it is supposed to be happy.. bahagia.. berbunga-bunga..  being in love jugak sepatutnye tak berserabut ngan masalah itu ini.. takde orang ketiga, ke4, ke5 di antara the couple.. takde orang yg sedih or marah or tak senang hati with the lovebirds.. being in love tak sepatutnye terseksa jiwa & raga.. tak tenang hati & fikiran.. tapi, kalau being in love kene hadapi semua tu.. worth it ke to stay in that  relationship? atas dasar ape.. err.. sayang??  so.. what is actually the definition of love?

i dont know.. well.. i admit... bukannye semua relationship happy memanjang.. of course la ade mase marah, sakit hati, geram, menangis sekali sekala.. but then. semua tu sepatutnya jadi spices yg akan menyedapkan lagi the relationship.. bukannye to make it turn sour..  bosan gak kalau happy jek manjang..ye tak? i am not a love doctor, but i think i am not that stupid to talk abt love. hmm.. y am i babbling abt this actually? because i just couldnt understand y "love" always dijadikan alasan utk menyeksa diri sendiri.. tak kisahla orang tu nak wat camana pun.. sabar jek.. sebab ape? sayang... biarla orang tu marah2, control all ur life.... sabar jek.. because of what? sayang... adehlaaa.. i can accept it kalau the couple dh jadi husband & wife.. tapi kalau takat berboifren-gelfren.. what the ****??  hello!!! but azell, love is blind..  oh yes! love is blind.. but u r not stupid, rite? i just dont understand y ppl dont want to quit being in a "sakit" relationship & sanggup being miserable melayan karenah the other person beacause as for me, i quit! i quit from being in relationship which i know takkan ade future.. i quit being in a relationship with someone nice, stable, very sweet but someone else's husband.. i quit being in relationship with a single & availble guy, very nice, a pilot (kaya woo!!) but since i know i cannot stand a distance relationship (yelah.. dia fly 5 hari non-stop, pastu balik 3 hari, tapi jadi zombie sbb jet lag & penat..), so i backed off.. i quit from falling in love with someone yg taknak ade komitmen.. i quit falling for someone yg ntah-ape-ape.. until one day, i fell for my dear someone & i've decided to let myself falling more in love with him because he is non from the above. for me, if i were to have a "boifren", i want the relationship ends with marriage. kalau tak, takyah nak susah payah declare itu ini.. kalau the other person tu macam nak taknak jek berusaha ke arah "mendirikan rumahtangga", i'm not going to waste my time holding on the rope that will got me ten feet off the ground.  tapi tula... dah sayang kan.. nak wat camana.. hmm..

"well, u can said that because u have someone now.." oh tidak... it is not because i have my dear fiance now so i can said all these.. sebelum2 ni pun, this is how i think. i was happy living my single life before.. so, i dont want to make myself unhappy by being in a relationship yg sakit just for the sake of "being in a relationship".. so right now, since i'm in a "healthy" relationship, thus makes me a happier person. bukan ke itu matlamat hidup kite, to be better than b4?

anyways.. memasing ade cara & opinion sendiri.. but these are my opinions. i admit, love is about sacrifice.. but, sacrifice intelligently, not blindly atas alasan - sayang. ape-apehal pun, kumbang bukan seekor, bunga bukan sekuntum dalam dunia ni.

have a nice weekend to all beautiful ppl! 

i think i want to use that title every end of the year la kot..

today is 31 dec 08. cepat jek mase berlalu. dah nak habis 2008.. in fact, in just few hours, it will be 2009 already.. sedih sebenarnye sbb 2008 ni cam best, but, in the same time, i am so teruja with 2009. anyways, ada apa dengan 2008 ni ye?

first quarter of the year.. adam fell sick, badly. his condition antara hidup & mati mase tu. in fact, his dad got the letter to be signed from HKL - surat yg mengatakan pihak hospital akan buat yg terbaik but if adam tak survived, they cannot do anything. for a month adam kat ICU - unconscious. and another few months kat wad biasa with tangan & kaki casted. mase tu semua orang miserable and wad paedratik HKL tu cam dh jadi rumah kedua for both my sis & bro. anyhow, adam, being the strong boy, he survived - after 4 operations in 1 month. now, he is the naughtiest & healthiest boy that is loved by everyone. Alhamdulilah..

work wise, things are good in the office. ade la hiccup sana sini, but still.. bearable & in fact, i dont remember what are the bad things that happened at work this year..hmm..takde kot.. we moved from level 59, tower 1 to level 15, silver tower. silver tower is a stink building but since everyone is in the same level, we get closer to each other everyday.  this year, rezeki murah, Alhamdulillah.. getting 11% increment in a year is banyak enuff for me.. never had that while i was in MASA before this. for that, i really, really,really thankful to the Almighty. hmm... 1 thing i realized, give & give.. especially to our mother. whatever she wants. walaupun kekadang rase cam tak logic jek ape yg dia mintak.. but still.. try to fulfill all her needs & make her happy.. Insya Allah.. what u'll get in return, is out of ur mind.. trust me.. it's a proven fact! :D 

family matters, everything was great.. adik got engaged. amin launched his own DIY, ijas secured a better job - she's a lecturer & a mommy now. abg man naik pangkat lagi - he's the ketua jabatan and kak ma is pregnant, again! all that made mak & ayah a happy parents. Alhamdulillah..

personal stuff... hmm.. 18 Oct, got engaged to my dear someone. all the times spent together, the tears, the smiles & laughters.. the photos, the pictures & the secret moments shared with each other.. and the blessings from both families & friends.. all that made our love grow stronger. nothing else matters now. end of Oct, went holidaying with bestest girlfriends at krabi. the best cuti2 i guess and i hope that will not be the last for me to have fun with them.  

hmmm.. ape lagi eh? friends are great as usual. officemates, blogsahabats, x-colleagues, x-AIMians, schoolmates and everyone who knows me this year.. u r the best! thank you for sticking right next to me all the times and hope our ukhuwah will go on stronger now & forever. Insya Allah.

life is full of ups & downs.. Alhamdulillah, 2008 is the "up" year for me & family.. but as mak said, keep our feet on the ground.. because kalau jatuh, takla sakit sangat lepas ni... ape-apehal pun, urs truly mmg bersyukur dengan ape yg ada skarang. and hopefully, everything will be better for all of us in 2009 & future..

next year's resolution? well.. to be better from this year.. Insya Allah..

have a good day, dear beautiful ppl.. have a blessed & happy new year. goodbye 2008 & hello 2009!!!    

kinda bored today. since all the documentations are now with AA for his review, i have some free time although actually i have to review some docs from AA & user. ngantuknye...

life is great nowadays. a letter from boss yesterday really made me feel appreciated and blessed. although what i received is nothing much, but compared to what i ever got during my time in MASA, incomparable - i've been walking unnoticed for freaking 6 years in MASA. regardless of what i did, what i got is just cynical smile & kate-kate kutukan from the bosses.. but here, they "saw" me though tak sampai 2 years i joined the family. tak pernah ade muke2 or kate2 sinis from the bosses. in MASA, i was really diperkecilkan, diperlekehkan & diperbodohkan. sedih tau!! ntahla.. i dont know y i still have this dendam dgn MASA sampai skarang. sometimes, kalau dtg mood jahat ni, cam nak jek write a nasty email to MASA's bosses - u r fired, serve u rite!!! but then.. tulaa.. urs truly tak macam tu.. so, this dendam remained deep in my heart. takpelah.. in positive view, takke what i am now is the result from how i was treated back then? hmm.. maybe i shud be thankful to MASA for making me who i am now.. ape-apehal pun, i still  love all the sweet memories and the kindest teammates, friends, colleagues there..

i was reading my last year's entry on the same date as today. rase macam baru jek all the travelling semua tu.. but it was actually happened a year ago. the second last paragraph from the entry made me think.. if last year, i asked a question, "mane nak cari lelaki camtu eh?", this year, i really hope i'm engaged to that "lelaki".. and i wonder how my entry will be a day b4 christmas nx year..

azell in negative mood rite now.. though i am actually happy, but there r some things that hurt me right now.. or is it just my ego?

Merry Christmas & have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!

as promised, my long & happy entry yg dh lama dalam draft mode.. here goes my karangan.. _________________________________________________________________

2 Dec 09 - genap sebulan i didnt update this blog of mine. bukannye takde citer nak update. in fact, banyak sungguh cerita yg nak ditulis.. but mood & masa tak mengizinkan blog ni untuk di update. anyways, to summarize everything, november was an interesting month. work, life, family matters - semua ade citer masing2..

i cant quite remember what happen in my daily life for the whole november month, but all i know, for almost 3 weeks i had to fetch ijas from her office since perut dia dah cecah stereng kete dah kalau dia yg drive.. so, every morning, ayah will send her to ofis, and i'll fetch her back. seronok gak having someone to talk to throughout the journey back. but the traffic really killing me. almost everyday sampai rumah lambat due to traffic. and because of that also, all my nite activities were halted. no more lepaking with the girls, or dinner with my dear fiance.. everyday balik awal & straight home.. huhu..terasa sungguh baik gitu.. but it's ok.. i know she'll drop everything & do the same to me if i were in her situation too. 

Friday, 14/11 - mak buat kenduri doa selamat utk ijas - untuk senang dia deliver and all. the kenduri started after Isyak, but urs truly & ijas sampai rumah kul 8-ish p.m due to very bad traffic all the way back. sampai rumah je, upon seeing my dear fiance dah berkain pelikat tgh tolong abg LL susun sofa semua, really ease my tense stucked in the jem for 2 hours.. after tukar baju & freshened up, turun tolong ape yg patut. while the ladies bace yasin kat bawah, my dear fiance lepak kat atas with abg LL & cousin. the event went well.. and it was almost 1 a.m my dear fiance went home, after gulung karpet & susun semula all the perabot. dear, really, really appreciate all u did and thank you!

Tuesday, 18/11 - ijas was on leave that day and i took the opportunity to hang out with the girls. kak TT is going for Haj and i have to see her before that. so, after work, walked around the park with kak azah dulu sementara nak tunggu maghrib. after that off to our secret place in pavillion. anum joined us not long after that and all four of us stayed there,  makan, talked & laughed sampai la tempat tu nak tutup. kak tt will be back here on january and as at now, i'm missing kak tt already.

Monday, 24/11 - Amer Haziq was born.. the long awaited new baby in the family. ijas selamat deliver on monday afternoon at hospital serdang. so happy for her & abg LL.

Wednesday, 26/11 - woke up early as i did not quite done with the packing. at 9 a.m, leymah arrived at my house followed by kak wa 1/2 hour later. as usual, ayah sent us to LCCT. after checked in, went for breakfast at mc d. biasalah, kalau kami berempat berkumpul, sungguh kecoh. tepat 12.05 p.m, our flight took off to krabi. arrived at krabi airport at 12.20 krabi time (1.20  p.m waktu mesia). from the airport we took a bus to krabi town where a shuttle van will bring us to koh lanta island. our journey to koh lanta island was smooth & everything was fine. the weather, the ppl, the scenery.. it was almost 6 p.m we arrived at our hotel. spacious room, huge bed, nice ambience & clean bathroom = perfect!. after rehat sekejap, we went out scurring for dinner. since kat sana susah nak cari halal food, kami terima je memana tempat yg bleh serve food without any "thing" in the menu. had a hearty dinner at a resort few metres away from our hotel . after dinner, walked back to our hotel along the beach. lepak kat kerusi malas yg disediakan kat depan laut. walaupun gelap & tak nampak ape2 kt depan, it was soothing with the wind and sound from the ombak yg menghempas pantai. around midnite baru masuk bilik after tawar menawar the best price for island hopping & snorkling esoknye with the resort tour manager. bravo mc ann sbb berjaya "melemahkan" mamat tu & saved us 300 baht. 

Thursday, 27/11 - woke up early sbb the trip for island hoping is at 8.30 a.m. went down for breakfast just to see all the foods served there bercampur aduk ngan that "thing". so, asked the waiter if they served muslim foods, terus dia panggil chef dia and kami dihidangkan special foods yg lain dari orang lain.. lengkap ngan sup semua.. best! their service pun bagus. it was great to be treated differently from the others. almost 9 a.m, a shuttle pick-up van came to bring us to the jetty. we spent almost 3 hours b4 reaching the first spot/island to snorkle. but it was nice.. cuaca akhir tahun sungguh best.. tak panas. takdela me & kak wa terbakar kulit sbb lepak atas boat tu instead of duduk kat dalam. we were given 40 mins to snorkle around before off to another spot. had lunch they provided at one of the beach since the package is including lunch. sedap foods diaorang nih.. tapi we sure all the mat salleh tak kenyang sbb the foods totally asian's. after lunch, we continued our journey - to a cave. at first, i tot it was only swimming under the cave thing.. but, i was wrong when they didnt stop swimming & the cave became dark & darker.. rase cam nak nangis dah bile tak nampak ape2 mase tgh berenang tu. the only thing i can see is darkness..but i know ramai orang around me as i can here ppl swimming & breathing hard to reach at the other side of the cave. bile nampak light baru lega sket and the cave is actually a tunnel to a beautiful beach in the middle on the island. nice!!!! not long after that, kak wa & mc ann arrived, together with the boatman.. the boatman was very friendly, especially to mc ann and helpful too. dia ni la yg jadi tukang amik gambar kami berempat kat atas boat tu. after almost 1/2 an hour, we swam back to the boat.. using the same dark tunnel.. oh..btw, the tunnel is abt 80 meter long.. so, mmg penat la especially to those yg sungguh tak exercise cam urs truly.. after that, went to another snorkling spot where we got the chance to swim with the fishes. seronok! puas hati mandi laut/berenang/tengok ikan.. on the way back, all 4 of us stayed kat atas boat, looking out scenary and feeling the breeze while the others stayed inside. almost 3 hours, we reached the jetty and back to the hotel. evening, before dinner, we went venturing the town, but nothing much to buy. so, i passed buying anything though the rest dah beli souvenir semua dah.. went dinner at the same resort as last nite & walked back to the hotel & dozed off after packed all the things sbb dh nak balik esoknye.,

Friday, 28/11 - Happy birthday, Mc Ann!!! sorry sesangat i forgot ur birthday mase tu.. anyway, we started our journey back around 8.30 a.m. the shuttle van came & pick us up to krabi airport. while everyone was worried abt bangkok airport tutup, we were happily & savely arrived at krabi airport after 3 hours journey from our hotel. at 1 p.m, bertolak balik ke mesia. arrived lcct after 1 hour 20 mins later. the flight was smooth, the whether was fine.. everything abt the trip was great. i was smiling bile the plane mendarat.. a feeling very nice crept inside when knowing that i'm back at my own country. and my smiling widen when the first thing i got upon turning on my h/p was a msg from my dear fiance, missing me.. called ayah to fetch us at the airport. not long after settling our things, ayah arrived to bring all 4 of us home. there goes.. my annual trip with the girls. it was really fun this time around.. though ade la jugal hiccup sana sini & terasa hati begitu begini.. but still, it was the best & Alhamdulillah we were in His protection all the time. thanks girls, for the memories and i hope this is not the last trip for me with u guys..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!