21 April.. huhu..another 39 days to go.. ape lagi yg tak siap la ni? baju nikah yang oh-so-pretty! dah siap.. baju khatam Quran dah tempah.. bilik dah cat.. baju2 yg lain semua dh tempah.. barang2 hantaran dah beli semua - tinggal nak hias.. perabot baru will arrive mid of may.. basically, almost everything is ready & progressing well, Insya Allah.. invitation cards will be sent out ASAP.. tgh mengumpul alamat nih.. so, to all my blogreaders, pls leave me ur addy.. nanti azell hantar kad.. :D

anyways.. i'm not feeling so well now. after almost everyday berkubang ngan habuk last week, now my nose dh start running away from me again.. ditambah plak ngan sneezing yg tak berenti.. phew! and then, weekend that day sibuk mengecat bilik with my dear fiance.. well, azell takdela buat ape sangat pun.. just be there for the sake of being there.. my dear fiance la yang bertungkus lumus mengecat bilik tu sampai kul 4 pagi.. huhu.. and what does his fiancee buat? instead of helping out, she spread a blanket on the dusty floor, with a bunny as her pillow & lie down & sleep.. memula tu ingatkan nak tolong2 la angkat bekas cat tu so that he doesnt have to go up & down the ladder.. tapi, tula.. he woke me up after the walls are nicely painted, kan.. so, there goes all my niat nak menolong.. hahah.. ape-apehal pun.. really appreciate what he did.. and really love the sight of this serious guy yg comot with colours, working on with the paints.. before i closed my eyes to la-la-land...

sunday, finish up the painting jobs.. ptg tu bz tolong mak masak nasi ayam for the guest. ade meeting ngan orang kampung mlm tu - meeting pembahagian tugas mase kenduri nanti. just like the other weddings we had before this. my dear fiance went home after dinner - after 2 days at my house mengerjakan the room. thanks dearie.. after Isyak, tetamu sampai and the meeting went on until i dont know pukul baper.. based on our maid, sampai kul 2 pagi.. phew.. banyak bende yg diaorang discuss tu.. and that nite also i received a msg frm AA - "lina, will u hate me if i dont turn on up for work anymore?".. immediately i replied "yes, i will".. well.. after 2 years working closely together, AA, being my partner in crime, my boss, my enemy and in the same time, my bestest friend who cares a lot about me in iPioneer all these while, the only person who can open my drawer without asking my permission, the only guy who drink my drank coffee without hesitation, the only one who talked to management abt my credibility (thus the 2nd increment in a year) - is leaving the company. when i told dearie iko abt this, he asked "should't u be happy?" - because all these while i'll burst out all my ketidakpuasan hati pasal AA to him.. and strangely, deep down i must confess, without AA, my life here wont be happier either.. tetiba terus jadi clueless.. now i realized, sepanjang 2 tahun kat sini, i never work with anyone else but AA. sedihnye.... :( maybe this is the time for me to shine without AA overshadowing me.. i know it is tough. and ppl will have the same expectation like what the expected from AA. and me is not AA. not even close.. sigh!! sad.. need to start talking to other PMs to secure a project.. huhu.. macam nak cari keje lain, but in the same department.. else makan gaji buta azell kat sini..

oh i need to think happy thoughts!! about work, about life.. about everything.. *think happy thoughts.. think happy thoughts*

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!