Another 19 days to go.. well, actually, it's 18 days - minus today. rase cam tak sabar jek nak tunggu these 18 days.. bukannye ape.. but, selagi all these tak selesai, memacam bende rase.. bebende kecik pun bleh rase sampai berat kepala nak pk. and all these are not making me happy. lagi berserabut, adela.. contoh yg azell tgh pk la ni - about ribbon/lace/renda to hias the bakul telur.. i need all that dgn banyaknye sbb nak hias around 1000 bakul.. but i cant find the suitable one yg berbaloi ngan harga (1 kotak reben tu mahal wooo.... ape lagi kalau nak berkotak2).. and the time is running out.. but i still need the ribbons... aaarghh!! went to jln TAR with ijas during lunch tadi nak tgk2 kat kedai2 kat sana.. lagi mahal!! nak gi choket, cam cuak la plak nak gi sana sensorang.. or, maybe i shud brave myself gi redah pasar choket yg bile-kat-sana-tak-rase-cam-kat-mesia tu alone? nak pegi after ofis, sure dh tutup kedai dlm tu.. oh dear!! see!! it just a small matter.. tapi for me it's like bende besar jek.. yelah kan, takkan nak bagi bakul telur bogel2 macam tu without any hiasan? tu baru 1 bende.. tak tambah ngan nak jumpa kenkawan utk distribute kad but i dont know when to meet them.. maybe ahad ni kot.. kamy dearie, if u r reading this, i want to see u & lynx ahad ni ye? sabtu, ade gathering kat rumah kak wa.. our last gath before me & her bertukar status tak lama lagi.. but, this weekend jugak my new perabot nak sampai.. my oh my!!!! boleh ke nak kuar kejap ni? plus, mak & ayah pun dah membebel2 sbb anak dia ni asyik kuar jek.. being their only 1 daughter yg paling lama stayed with them, i know they want to spend as much time as they can with me before i move out from their house & their hands..  *sigh* all these (and much more!!) really made my mind tak focus and my chest rase cam berat jek - resulting, i fell down twice in 1 week! at first jatuh kat bilik air & few days after that, kat tangga kolam ikan kat luar.. my both knees sakit sampai skarang but luckily i didnt sprained my ankle (walaupun mase jatuh kat bilik air tu ibu jari kaki terpeleot & serius sakit!).. tapi tulaa.. of course i cannot show it off to everyone how miserable i am now, right.. so, as always.. senyum jek..cuma kesian kat my husband-to-be-in-18 days la.. he has to bear my imbalanced mood yg kejap ok, kejap tak.. oh well.. i know i'm being a drama queen here.. but, seriously.. i just cant wait all these to end!

phew!! lega.. all these while semua ni just linger in my head. ade lagi bende yg buat azell rase nak mengamuk - like forcing me to do things i dont like.. but i cant say anything.. and of course i cant do anything but to follow & oblige.. tu tk masuk lagi hal2 lain yg i have to settle it myself.. plus the feelings i felt each time.... hmmm.. takpelah.. i know i'm thinking too much right now.. thinking abt the unneccesary things... as if there is no other way i can do to settle things.. of course there is a way.. but i hate it. it made me look pathetic & helpless & weak. and speaking of that.. my gigi bongsu nak start tumbuh lagi & made half of my throat sakit..

18 days to go.. and i have to bear all these for another 18 days.. wish me luck, my dear blogreaders..

my head is spinning.. my chest is throbbing pain.. but u have a nice day, beautiful ppl..