Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

17 days to go...

i'm writing this while chatting with my dear fiance at YM.. 2 years ago, early of may, we crossed the friendship & "abang-adik" line.. and left me with a big question mark in my head - confused. although mase tu everything still blurry and i didnt put any hope on anything, but we continued to get to know each other more. never once i want to stop from seeing him or being with him, though i wasn't sure where we will be ended up to. over the time, the feeling grew deeper.. and we came to a stage where decision has to be made. to be or not to be.. and the decision has to come from me. after thinking & weighting abt everything, i feel like i cant afford to live without him around and thus, i've decided.. 2 years later, end of may, we r getting married..

within these 2 years, we've seen the ugliest things on each other. but all that made us bond stronger.. well, at least for now.. of course things can be more complicated bile dah duduk sebumbung, ye tak? tapi sekurang2 nye, takdela terkejut kalau memasing dh started to show our true color lepas ni.. hahah.. bak kate orang adelaide, "abg apis yg garang, ina yg macam2".. hmm.. abg apis ni, garang2 dia pun.. he has the softest heart.. grunge2 dia pun, he is someone who loves to pamper me sampai kite lak yg rase guilty & serba salah.. he made me feel beautiful (ulang suara - "... feel beautiful".. reality wise, i am faaaar from being beautiful).. he made me feel so special despite all my weaknesses.. he is someone who always want to be for me.. and the most important thing.. he loves me. he loves me after knowing me -  which i prefer to be like that instead of love at the first sight kinda thingie.. he loves me for  who i am (i am the drama queen, yg macam2, yg kejap ok, kejap tak.. yg ntahapa-hapa).. and of course.. give me brad pitt, chris pine, or even eric bana (gosh! they r cute!!! errr.. ampun bang.. heheh).. still, i want my "abg apis".. hmm.. speaking of eric bana... how come i didnt recognize him in star trek? he used to be on my wallpaper back then..  but still.. he's cute! (but not in star trek laa.. sbb tu tak kenal.. hahaha..) oh well.. doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing, cause I'm in love with the inner being... :)

hmm.. my gigi bongsu is still thrusting its way out.. so, my gum dh swollen resulting tekak sakit & nak bukak mulut pun payah.. even nak menelan pun sakit.. i guess, i need to go to dentist esok.. kalau b4 this, i'll let it sembuh sendiri (which the pain takes weeks to subside..), but since ade event besar tk lama lagi kan, so, nak kene treat it cecepat la jawabnye..

it's 2.30 a.m now.. my fiance pun dh tido.. his webcam pun dh gelap.. guess i'll stop here first..

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!