of a wonderful journey...

lunch time now.. just finish 2 pairs of roti with kaya & planta. no appetite to eat anything else.. plus the "feeling" i'm feeling now is so disturbing.. nadia said, nausea is sometimes just a "feeling".. so, i'm bearing with it..

oh well.. it's too early to feel anything, i guess.. saje je acik azell ni yg mengada2. calculated in one of the website given by dearest sister, i am about 5 weeks... hmmm.. frankly, i dont know how i should feel.. excited? well.. takdela excited sgt pun.. more to teruja with the miracle that is happening in me now. each time bace abt all these things, lagi teruja.. with each week development, sometimes cam tak caya jek semua tu tgh on-going inside my body. tapi ape-apehal pun, Alhamdulillah.. really hope this little sesame seed will grow to be the most handsome/beautiful (very fair skin, with curly hair, chubby cheek...amboih!!! melampau plak berangan! heheh) baby.. or babies. Insya Allah..

my mood swings gile2 la ni.. with dear hubby not with me, lagi buat urs truly ni rase ntahapa2. well, i know i have to be strong. this is my task to do, mine alone. there is no one will take care of me, but myself.. so, be strong, ME! heheh..  once my fren pernah cakap, "i'm ready to have kid when i think i'm ready to raise him/her alone without his/her father".. hmm.. that's tough. anyways, really hope i have high endurance level to be a full time employee (meetings, projects, documentations, traffic jam), full time housewife (cooking, washing, cleaning, ironing) and a fulltime ibu-to-be...    

oh i am so feeling unwell - emotionally & physically!

have a nice day, beautiful ppl!