phew!! just threw out everything i had for lunch b4.. tak sampai 1/2 jam pun the foods remain in my system. makan kenyang sangat kot.. tu yg sampai keluar balik everything. anyways, walked to pavillion this afternoon. after like 2 months tak pegi sana tetengahari, today ntah nape rase cam nak pegi pavillion, surveying foods for lunch. i was so bored with the thoughts of "what to eat?" every lunches & dinners. right now i have no appetite at all utk makan. dgr perkataan foods made me feel eewww. because of that, dapur pun lama tak berasap. kalau dulu, sedaya upaya i'll prepare dinner at home and breakfast for my dearie husband, never missed! walaupun it just roti with tuna - mesti ade bekal for him. but all that cuma tahan baper minggu jek when after that, urs truly ni jadi very penat, sick with nausea, my sense of smell jadi haru biru - cant even stand my own CD perfumes!, no appetite at all - tapi kene makan sbb kalau perut kosong lagi parah, mood swing - cepat betul rase sedih & nak nangis and 1001 macam lagi laa..as at now, i'm holding on to the fruits - the only foods i can eat non-stop without purging it out again. dear husband, being the sweetest guy ever, will always make sure stok buah sentiasa ade dlm peti ais. and lagi sweet, dia siap potong kekecik lagi buah2 tu for my bekal to ofis. not only that, stok susu enfamama pun sentiasa ade and he'll make sure i drink the not-so-sedap milk tu everyday.    

btw.. yesterday marked 2 months both of us disatukan as husband & wife. 2 great, roller coaster months.. :D my habit in the morning nowadays is to look at dear husband's sleeping face (sambil kacau2 dia tido), and realized that i'm falling in love with him everyday. it is a nice feeling and made me kinda cheerful in the morning despite of rase nak muntah each time gosok gigi or bile terlambat makan breakfast..

last nite, went dinner at tony roma's - urs truly ni ntahapa-hapa sket.. takde selera nak makan, but always craving for salads (salad mahal2 pulak tu!!).. last week, had salad at nandos. the nite before, had salad at chillis with kak azah and last nite, dalam tak larat balik keje & muntah, told dear husband rase cam nak makan salad kat tony roma's.. so, he brought me there to satisfy my craving for tony roma's asian salad with salmon.. sedap!! always my favorite. balik tu, terus tak sedar ape atas sofa while dear husband pegi ofis. woke up at 12 a.m just to change baju & pengsan lagi dalam bilik. when dear husband balik kul 2 pagi baru bangun freshen up everything. tapi lepas tu pengsan semula after having sebiji epal hijau to surpress rase nak muntah + lapar. and last nite, i also realized, i cant fit my fav jeans anymore.. everything is ok with the jeans, except for i cant button it up already. that was my fav jeans sbb the only jeans i can wear without belt. so, mmg dia muat2 jelah.. and because of that, the jeans is the first pant i need to let go.. huhuuu...

i'm having my mix fruits now. the second bekas already. the 1st bekas dh habis pagi tadi. right now, i realize i cannot walk as fast as b4. cepat sangat rase mengah. mase pegi pavillion tadi pun, i was panting macam berlari la plak. plus rase cam melayang2 pun ade.. maybe panas tadi kot.. kul 12.30 tghari mase tu.. nasib baik sampai gak ofis. i actually need to finish up a document - well, it is actually AA's part. but since he is going to JB for another project, sape lagi yg kene buatkan kalau tak urs truly ni? sigh.. sabar jelah..

oklah.. gotta resume work. have a nice day, beautiful ppl!!